reset.

I'M GOING TO REGRET THIS SOME DAY.

2010-02-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

This is all Jasmine Lim's fault.

Yes I know. After that post a few days ago. -.-
BUT IT'S KYU'S BIRTHDAY. IT'S A GOOD TIME TO START ANEW (o.O...?). :D

I've decided to "commemorate" my Top 4 + 1106 by... doing something significant to my life on each of those days (okay fine so moving to LJ hardly qualifies as significant but today I realised I utterly have. no. life. -.- So I'm going to try to get one. Somehow. \O/)

Okay basically I think I'm going to say bye to blogger ~~for now~~ (and once you move to LJ, you never look back... or that's what other people say anyway.). :P Since you can categorize just about everything super conveniently in LJ anyway... Lalala.

Yeah okay.
So I really need to go bathe now.

Bye doapw. I still love you lots. ^^ :')

It's a new beginning~
Okay not really, but anyway. :D

(I got an idea about rewriting Similarities into something more... decent. TO BE DONE OVER THE FREAKING WEEKENDS. I NEED CONSTRUCTIVENESS.)
(RAH.)

<3

xoxos.

/

2010-02-01T21:34:00.004+08:00

I'm amused that out of all the things Mr Thia could comment on for my LA "reflective" essay (that 1) I never got to finish which leads to 2) it sounds like nothing but a plain fangirl...'s rambles... -.-), he had to comment that " 'guy' is an American word" (and I should not use American words since A Levels follow Cambridge which (no duh) is in England we should all use British English and not use words like "guys" or "kids" or "movies" and etc...) -.-
(Okay yeah he pointed out like a million more punctuation errors too but that's... minor...)
And the mark I got for it... is super amazing -.- It's more than my EOYs compo okay -.- -.- -.-
I conclude I'm lucky that he's lenient. :D

It's nice to have things exceed expectations, huh.
FRED AND GEORGE MENTALITY!
An Exceeding Expectations is better than an Outstanding.
Because when you get an E you're surprised pleasantly! While for Os... you probably have to slave away all the time or something and after all, O stands for Ordinary too. XD E on the other hand, can perfectly well stand for ETs! And ETs are cool.

OMG what's happening to my level of coherency these days.
(V/O: It has never existed.)

\O/

Yay I should really try living like Fred & George :D (Wait am I not doing that already... -.- :P)
:DDDD

LALALALA I'M UNCONSTRUCTIVE AND PROUDLY SO :DDD

Okay bye.
Need to go "拼" so that I can "赢" (omg wth too much 读报练习 O_O) :DD

save me from myself.

Really grateful for my life at times.
:D

and there are so many alternatives, no? ^^

xoxos.

even.

2010-02-01T17:45:00.004+08:00

Lalala.
I guess I'm not going to go for SSII already :P Considering how tickets are on-sale online today and already the only tickets left are those going for RM458~ and by the time my mom confirms the details for her America trip and IF it happens to not be on 20 March, it'll be too late anyway.
I bet all tickets would be gone by tomorrow. Wednesday, max.
(Or maybe not. The utter failness of the Singaporean/Malaysian mentality... amuses me.)

Won't say I'm not disappointed, because for some few (or maybe many...) moments I thought maybe, maybe, maybe I was going to be able to see all of them, in freaking person. Maybe I was going to go to my first concert in my life, and maybe my first time would be given to them, the guys who already are my firsts, in so many aspects. :P (E.g. the first Korean band that I've liked and probably will ever like. and the first group of people whom I started liking, because of personality and personality and personality alone.)
(Have I mentioned how I cried the first time I read the Park Jungsoo entry on baidu baike? For no apparent reason at all? I mean, I barely knew who he was, except for him being THE LEADER and THE CAR-STEALER (thanks to the parody...). It's just that, omg, I've never known... someone could be... like him. Well anyway, so that's why I'm where I am now. :P)

But it's okay.
I'm not sure if an incomplete Super Junior is what I want to see anyway.
~~and maybe I'll stop thinking of how I've sworn to stand by them no matter what. Which is hard because it's still true now.~~

~~and of course I'm fighting the voices in my head that hiss, "there may never be a super show III. and you're going to regret this for life."~~
~~and I'm failing.~~
~~and the voices are winning.~~
~~but there's nothing I can do about that, is there.~~

Ahh it's okay.
Life doesn't end just because of this. :D

Either way you guys are... ________________________________. That special presence in me :D
Nothing's gonna change (:

I've got other things to... fight for, as of now.

^^

ANYONE WHO LIVES CLOSE TO CCK WANTS TO TAKE KOREAN WITH ME? :D
Talk to me for details~ :D

Watching SNSD comebacks just make me wonder, when's Super Junior's comeback ever going to be, eh?
And how would it be like when they have their comeback, anyway?
13, 12, 11, 10?
Sigh.

But you promised me right, Park Jungsoo.
There'll be a 4th album no matter what right. You promised.

And Hangeng you freaking promised all 13 members would be freaking present at the Taiwan concert.
So you, make yourself appear.
Because I freaking miss you.

URGH.
THIS IS CERTAINLY NOT WHAT I NEED WHEN I HAVE LEFT-OVER WEEKEND HOMEWORK TO CHIONG.

RAAAAAAAAH.

What have I done right in my previous life?
The above sentence is quoted from Xuedi, but I'm using it on myself for today. Because it applies, in so many ways. :D

Oh and I brilliantly wrote 11 as my index on the shiyongwen. -.- Knew it was going to happen someday. :D

I miss 213. ARGH.
And I need to figure out that goat thing -.- -.- -.- -ahem-
And I should really get to practising Neorago on the piano. :D
(See there's so many other ways to love someone. You don't have to see them in person to love someone, yeah? :DD)

(Okay I'll stop dwelling on this topic. :D)

xoxos.

/

2010-01-31T22:22:00.003+08:00

oel ngati kameie.

Sometimes I'm really happy to just be alive.

(Although I still have jianbao, math, reflections, french and goodness-knows-what waiting for me. :/)

But it's okay, because we'll make it through.
^^

/edit/
It's so easy to say things.
Things like, "I'm only competing against myself."
Things like, "No I won't."
Things like, "I promise."

How often do we remember the things that we say?
How often do we actually do the things we said we'll do?

xoxos.

/

2010-01-30T19:46:00.003+08:00

Go do work already, me. -.-

An outburst of posts is what you get when I don't update my blog for 4 days straight (with a post that doesn't really count as a post for one day) \O/ Whee~

I really think the entire student population of nygh probably have narcolepsy or something. (Yes I finally found out what's the term for this... occurance? It's called ATTEMPTS to write Insomnia aka SJ100 #5. :D)
Or at the very least, I'm sure I have it (esp with how I always fall asleep during bio. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. It's not as if Ms Chee / Ms Christine Lee (from last year...) is a bad teacher. BUT I JUST ALWAYS FALLS ASLEEP IN BIO. I don't even fall asleep in LA listening to Mr Thia. Which says a LOT. ._.)
(And I'm always miraculously awake and alert in Alit. \O/)
(Maybe I really should have taken CP+Alit or something -.- But then I'll be in 309. And I'm starting to get attached to 310, really. Which is good great and awesome. :D no sarcasm implied.)

OKAY BIOBIOBIO. :P
If all fails I can always read the textbook. And won't be too lost.
Hopefully.

:D

I take what I said about running out of things to say on my blog back. -.-
:P

xoxos.

commit.

2010-01-30T19:04:00.005+08:00

I've convinced myself to never move to LJ. (Yeah I know I'm was swaying despite being irritated to no end by the (lack of) efficiency of the LJ system when sending verification emails...)
Because part of the fun, the attraction, the reason why I'm considering moving to LJ is getting to know some of the really awesome fic authors (ahem).

But then knowing someone on cyberspace is so different from knowing people in real life.

And I'm well-known (okay rather I know myself well -_-) for having serious commitment issues (?!) to people online. Which is why all my forum accounts are dead-ish and why I admire people who make friends online.
I mean AFF was like the closest I've gotten to making friends online. (I still love Luna May a lot ^^ and I really wanted to know EmberGryphon better... she's an amazing person :P and Sir Capadoodle (ahem), ESoD (XD) and Neesha (XDDDD) and dreamz and everyone's just... urgh, so much love.) But then June holidays ended and my fad ended. And I haven't logged onto AFF for a really long time now. Tried to get back to it after EOYs ended but... I guess I just lost interest. Because I'm fickle like that.
I miss them, sometimes, but I can't ever go back again I guess, without dying of embarrassment over having to explain why I poofed on them like that and I can't guarantee never disappearing again, and what's the point of appearing if I'm going to leave? (Okay that's not true but... I dunno, irrationality I guess.)
I miss the time when AFF was THE thing I spent all my time on during May - June hols last year. But it's not the same now, right.

So why bother doing it again, why bother getting to know a whole bunch of people whom I'll throw behind me just like that when one day I don't like Super Junior anymore / don't bother writing fanfics anymore? (I've only written 3 anyway, with ideas for others but never COMMITTING enough TIME to finish writing them... GAH.)
~~And it's not like anyone will really like my fics / me anyway. -.-~~

But then again why bother making friends in real life when everyone's going to move on someday?
:|

Friends leave a part of themselves with you, even after they leave.
That's the point of friends, I guess.

Even friends on cyberspace.
It's not the same as having real friends, after all knowing someone through words and pixels isn't the same as knowing someone whom you can see and touch and feel and hear, IN PERSON.
But it doesn't interfer with the nature of friendship itself, does it.
I mean Ember showed me how to argue and make a point without being aggressive, while being rational and not going overboard and turning it into a fight. Luna... is just too sweet and lovable and proves that you can be innocent and sweet and still liked by the world after all. capn and snoops and dreamz and basically everyone on AFF taught me (some things, I'm not really that great at making a point as of yet...) how to debate over morality issues and themes and everything (and capn changed the way I see Harry Potter forever... oh and introduced me to the concept of b^^d-s. 8D).
Even Dave (from jellyneo.net) got me all interested in HGttG. XD (Which I need to finish reading soon argh.)
HECK if not for kimheechullover (on youtube.com) and his/her amazing It's You + Sorry Sorry parody, and subsequently the 亲 who wrote the Park Jungsoo tribute on 百度百科, I won't freaking love Super Junior now.

It's just like my theory.
Sharing a piece of your soul through words. ;)

WAIT.
WAIT.
WAIT.
WHAT DID I JUST TYPE?!
Did I just give myself a reason to move to LJ ._____________________.
Omg no.

FINE. FINE. FINE.
I'll do it when my fics are more up-to-standard.
Which will happen.
One day.

Sigh.

Okay my mind isn't making sense now. \O/

xoxos.

.

2010-01-30T18:09:00.002+08:00

EUNHAE IS REEEEEEEEEEEAL.

Hyukjae = Hyukjae.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA <3>
Omg the fic author is BRILLANTE. ^^b

xoxos.

cile.

2010-01-30T11:45:00.009+08:00

Sec1 classes bond through activities.
Sec3 classes bond through dying together under piles of work.
:D

I realise all teachers (esp bio teachers) are super particular about being on-time/abiding to time frames for prac sessions .________.
:|

I'm really running out of things to say on my blog -.- Good thing bad thing? :/

Lalala I shall go attempt attacking my pile of work vigorously now 8D

I wanna give you strength because you give me mine.

marry you, is... a promise. A promise for a lifetime.
pyongseng gyothe issulge I do
nol saranghanun gol I do.

/edit/
Sometimes I really don't know why do us ELFs care so much about that 13 men who will never ever know us personally, who will forever be out of reach no matter how physically near they are.
But there's no point in asking why, right? (:

I LOVE 深蓝~~~ <3>

/edit^2/

ROFLMAO.

/edit^3>
Okay seriously why am I so free these days o.O LALALALA.
I wanna travel out of Asia .___________. Some day. .________. Through some unknown way.
Ahh fail fail fail.

xoxos.

/

2010-01-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

Life is pretty awesome after all.

<3

xoxos.

GRAH.

2010-01-25T23:58:00.002+08:00

I'M FREAKING SICK OF MAKING EMPTY PROMISES, RESOLUTIONS THAT I CAN'T KEEP.

HATE THIS HATE THIS HATE THIS.

(Nope, no blue font. This doesn't deserve to be put in blue.)

Sigh.

I've now got this huge stack of books that I reallyreallyREALLY want to read (including The Time Traveller's Wife. And BEING NIKKI. Yeah now you know how much I want to read them.) but will probably seriously never ever find the time to read.

My self control is nonexistent.

DIE.

xoxos.

recall.

2010-01-24T23:23:00.005+08:00

Things that I freaking need to do.

1) Get the 2nd half of my January allowance before February comes -.-
2) READ MY ******FREAKING ALIT STUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
3) Find time to read everything I've archived in my freaking read-later list (firefox, I hate/love you for coming up with this add-on.)
4) Like, find time to write. And chill. In general.
5) Develop a sense of urgency.
6) Stop drinking coffee and switch to milo (which is infinitely better for digestive systems and hormones and etc)
7) Stop allowing stuff to pile up on me.
8) Find some way for myself to RESIST FACEBOOK WTH.
9) Get my mom to come back to Singapore soon or something... SSII... (Okay I THINK I heard she's coming back tomorrow. ._.)
10) DO MY FREAKING FRENCH.

._.

You know the end of the world is coming soon when Lee Donghae fails to motivate you. -clutches throat-

.______________________.

I'm so unmotivated nowadays, I amaze myself.

T____________T

Gah.

xoxos.

.

2010-01-24T16:57:00.003+08:00

I'm in love with this video.
Plus it takes my mind off things. ._.

I'm going to punch whoever who ever doubts HanHyun ever again, for being utterly BLIND.
-.-
ISN'T THIS LIKE, PROOF ENOUGH. =________=

I love KTR to bits and pieces.
(In fact I love Super Junior to bits and pieces but yeah.)

I can't go back to where I used to be.

Sigh.

I love you.

xoxos.

.

2010-01-24T14:11:00.004+08:00

“他没来他爱你们”

"今天有了你们很幸福谢谢大家！"

only13，一个都不能少.

100123, Beijing SSII

SSI.
I can't really remember which concert this is, but that's beside the point.

不爱你是我自私的决定
我的心还没答应我可以忘了你
我应该放弃虽然我很努力
我无法说服自己不爱你

我们永远, Happy Together.

xoxos.

-_-

2010-01-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

Should I move to LJ x_x

xoxos.

.

2010-01-23T23:07:00.006+08:00

转自开心网 + 宝蓝阁 + ★夭ぅ①③ヾ的空间 + 百度 Super Junior 吧

摘自《Easy》

2009年我们和SuJu一起走过

2009 年，SuJu发行了第三张专辑，12次站在NO.1的舞台上 (me: SEE KIM KIBUM BECAUSE YOU WEREN'T THERE IT'S ONLY 12. -.-)；他们拥有了第一次私下的集体旅行，参加了成龙演唱会，《Sorry Sorry》的舞台在亚洲各个国家一度引起讨论，综艺，音乐剧在也接连不断地出演当中，这样的一年，他们走过的回忆和足迹，让我们一起珍藏在心！

舞台之最

最感人的舞台

三辑的告别舞台，最后出人意料的是全体成员(NOT TRUE. KIM KIBUM I WANT TO PUNCH YOU.) 在台上举起了一张横额，上面写着“感谢你们，我们爱你们，我们会记得你们。”

最反转的舞台

少女时代的《Gee》09年也大热，SuJu这么好的舞蹈基础又是同公司，帮助师妹打歌不遗余力，最后希澈还很创意地将它搬上了大舞台，特别是平时斯文的厉旭和圭贤，戴上长长的假发，相当的反转，在《快乐大本营》上，两人还联手演绎了这一经典画面。

最意外的舞台

谁都没想到，一向擅长唱歌的圭贤会站在舞台中间，替银赫当了回领舞者，跳得还像回事呢，可是成员们看着很不习惯，艺声在后面都忍不住笑了，看来这领舞当得太出乎意外了。

最大的舞台

收到成龙的邀请，SuJu参加了在鸟巢举办的第一次大型演出，代表韩国艺人出席的他们也备感光荣，舞台之大令人瞠目结舌，即使是人数众多的他们站在好几个圆台上也显得空落落的。
综艺之最

最特别的综艺

自从强仁加入《我们结婚吧》这个节目后，偶像和结婚的关系开始变得密切，强仁的绝不跪地原则虽然体现了他的大男子风，可是意外的新郎学校的加油饭，还有节目最后请来的钢琴家的演奏都让人认识到了他与众不同的亲和力，在韩国从小女生到大妈都因为成为了强仁的Fans，可见节目的力量之强大。

最深刻的综艺

《至亲笔记》，重新认识了队里偶尔存在的尴尬关系，晟敏和强仁 (which is pretty much busted by all Kangmin shippers)，希澈和银赫 (which I so don't believe after watching Full House)，都是一弱一强的对立。高台的喊话，会变亲密的方法，还有最后给成员们的字条，把SuJu与众不同的点点滴滴完全展示了出来。

最温暖的综艺

《Miracle》，这个节目是以帮助那些困难家庭的孩子寻找自己导师为主题的，每次都需要动用到个人的人脉在短短的时间内寻找每个领域的佼佼者，因为节目的公益性质而得到了不少高层的关注甚至是首尔**，每次从曲折中最后看到孩子感激的眼神，让SuJu备感自己责任的重大，从而更加珍惜这样的机会。

最特别的横额

在Dream Concert上，韩饭举了一个很大很特别的横额，上面写了“起范啊，有好好吃饭上班吗？”舞台上缺少了起范，看台上却永远有他席位呢 (给他的位置怎么能只是看台上的呢? 心里, 也有啊.)。

最美丽的旅行

在忙忙碌碌中哪怕有休假时间也赶着回家，赶着见朋友，可是09，SuJu策划了一次集体旅行，尽管还有几名缺席的队员，可是完全被一同出游的兴奋所掩盖了。

最多的NO.1

在三辑宣传期间，一共获得了12次NO.1的舞台，几个月间，几乎不间隔地获得第一的位置，销量也是居高不下！

最风靡的舞蹈

《Sorry Sorry》不仅琅琅上口，舞蹈编排更突破了十几个单一排列，而是以站位配合节奏，突出了每个成员不同的作用，副歌部分的搓手踢腿等招牌动作，更是风靡全**地区，从金钟奖到金曲奖，所有名牌节目上的艺人们都开始模仿他们。

最感动的一句话

“起范啊，哥做到了。”这是利特第一次获得第一名的时候，在感谢词中对着前方大叫的一句话，当时就感动了台上台下，成员们的眼泪哗哗掉了下来，少了一个人的舞台尽管遗憾，可是却依然强大。

最忙碌的一年

DJ、VJ、演戏、音乐剧，几乎一个不落地在同一时期出现，在宣传期间睡眠时间几乎一直低于三小时的SuJu，孜孜不倦地在各个位置努力，哪怕忙碌，也绝对不会退宿，相反会做更好。
最爱心的时刻

08年发生汶川地震的时候，韩庚毫不犹豫地把自己广告费捐了出来，并且在自己博客上写道，与其买礼物送给他，不如把这些钱聚集起来给更需要的人。从雪灾到地震，韩庚都不遗余力地捐款捐物，爱心不落人后。

摘于《韩流飓风》

Super Junior 2009 只有爱过的人才会懂

成长总是在悄然无息中发生的事情，一年，365天，8760个小时到底可以有多少成长的故事？恐怕只有经历过的人才能最为懂得。

2009 年，Super Junior的三辑终于如约而至，他们一次次在现场唱着如中毒般的《Sorry Sorry》，也因为这首歌曲将他们一次又一次的送上了领奖台。在年度的金唱片中，他们终于站在了梦寐以求的最高处，感受四面八方的欢呼和祝福。而同时，也是2009年的岁末，一场新的变革又在Super Junior中产生。

不是End，而是And，无论如何，2009年的时光，对于我们每一个E.L.F来说都值得深深铭记，因为这是一种只有爱过的人才会懂得的感情！

I really need a private place for me to fangirl =.=
Ah well whatever.

Omg Shining Star.
Sigh. Eunteuk = uh okay you two pabos stop crying already ;_;
Heechul = ?!?! OMG what. Omg nonononono Kim Heechul you aren't supposed to be like this IN PUBLIC. You're supposed to act all strong and invincible and omg you didn't even cry like this without Kibum, Kim Kibum your Snow White, not even without Kim Yongwoon your arguing partner, SO WHY ARE YOU CRYING LIKE THIS WITHOUT THAT STUPID FOREIGNER WHO CAN'T EVEN SPEAK KOREAN CALLED HANGENG?!
Okay fine I can't say that for sure. But well, you know. Sigh.
Sometimes people aren't as hard to read as they seem to be. SOMETIMES.
:P

Ah oh, Kyu. New solo eh? :P
-I bet some people would start second-guessing the meaning of the song choice. -.- -.- -.- WHATEVER.-

Sighsighsigh.

Kim Kibum, really, dance Sorry Sorry for us another day when your back's alright yeah?
Please.

together.

xoxos.

motivation~~~

2010-01-23T19:53:00.006+08:00

I NEED TO START WORKING HAAAAARD.
Operation Supersuper Girl~

Motivation comes in the form of Donghae.
:D (Someone needs to tell me why is my Hae-bias getting stronger day by day when I swear my heart loves Hyuk and Kyu and Teuk and the rest of Suju equally as much.)

Sigh.
WORKWORKWORKWORK BABY BABY BABY.

xoxos.

victim-perspective.

2010-01-21T23:42:00.003+08:00

(Yeah I seriously think I've got major moodswings.)

o.O
I didn't expect to get agitated by reading the zaobao news article about Haiti earthquakes -.-

But the fact that suddenly countries are calling off(? sorry my vocab/grammar fails) Haiti's debts just because of this earthquake... doesn't make much sense to me.

Sure, Haiti needs money.
But Haiti's ALWAYS been needing money. So why weren't the other countries this kind before?
Sure, Haiti needs even MORE money now that its entire infrastructure needs to be reconstructed and the people all need to be relocated to somewhere for the temporary time being and everything's messed up there and all.
But things've ALWAYS been messed up at Haiti. I'd call "Half of the children in Haiti are unvaccinated and just 40% of the population has access to basic health care. Even before the 2010 earthquake, nearly half the causes of deaths have been attributed to HIV/AIDS, respiratory infections, meningitis and diarrheal diseases, including cholera and typhoid, according to the World Health Organization. Ninety percent of Haiti’s children suffer from waterborne diseases and intestinal parasites. Approximately 5% of Haiti's adult population is infected with HIV. Cases of tuberculosis (TB) in Haiti are more than ten times as high as those in other Latin American countries. Some 30,000 people in Haiti suffer each year from malaria." messed-up enough. (That chunk of info came from Wiki (: )

So how does the fact that an earthquake occurred equate to called-off debts?!
I mean yeah everyone's giving money to Haiti anyway. But that's out of kindness and helpfulness and the general goodness of human nature.
Okay fine I guess that in a way calling off the debts are a form of donation too. Okay fair enough.

What I wanted to say originally is that while donations are fine, the country should still be held responsible for its past actions. Just because a devastating event occurred does not mean one can escape from shouldering the responsibilities of one's past actions.
It's just like, how whenever someone with a mental problem commits murder or crime of that sort, he always seem to get off lighter because "he had no idea what he was doing, he didn't meant to do it." Well he's done it. So he should take up the responsibilities of his actions. If he couldn't account for his own actions then shouldn't he be like isolated from the rest of society just to prevent him from doing stuff which affects others (since apparently he's unable to judge what he's supposed and not supposed to do)?
Actually what's the difference between an insane man and a drunk man committing a crime? In both cases, the person doesn't know what he's doing anyway. Just that one chooses to be drunk, but one cannot choose to be crazy.
And choice is really important or something, I suppose. -.- because sometimes that's all we have.

Okay back to Haiti.
So, why is the world only paying attention to Haiti now?!
Why does it take an earthquake for people to start noticing a country that has been requiring major help since like 30 years back?!
Doesn't make sense, does it.
(Okay maybe it all makes sense to you, maybe you've always known about how humans are way too caught up with our own oh-so-important lives that we neglect everything happening elsewhere in the world. I guess I've always known that too, but one doesn't notice the naivety of oneself until... something happens.)
:| I mean me myself only heard of Haiti this year thanks to the earthquake, or else up till now I still won't know of the existence of a place called Haiti -.-
So what about all those OTHER countries that need help? What about the starving people in Africa? When will they get their aid?
Why is it that the Haiti residents gets their help first (they're talking about doing something about the health conditions in Haiti, no?) just because, what, they've been through a greater disaster than the other under-developed countries?
:|
That's just not fair.

Okay argh I need to get back to jianbao. -.- No time to crap anymore about this issue :PP
Whee.
(I hope no one is offended by this. Anyway if you are, too bad for you. :P)
(And I'm not actually accusing Haiti of anything.)

Lalala.

xoxos.

pier.

2010-01-21T22:55:00.003+08:00

Don't ask me why.

Sort out some thoughts (:

Not sure about others though.

Oh, the tired-emo feeling, I've missed you so.
Welcome back anyway. :D

I'm so sorry but I love you like a donut.
I'm sweet and soft all around, but hollow in the middle.
:D

What would you like to think?

Cover up every sigh with a sob.
Because one is stronger than the other.

xoxos.

synonyms.

2010-01-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

You'd think people like me will have no problems writing a reflective essay, esp with the amount of self-questioning that I do on a daily basis and the rate that I update my blog with :P
But that's exactly the problem.
I'm too trivial.
:/

Sigh.
Dunno dunno dunno.

Miss

v. missed, miss·ing, miss·es
v.tr.
1. To fail to hit, reach, catch, meet, or otherwise make contact with.
2. To fail to perceive, understand, or experience: completely missed the point of the film.
3. To fail to accomplish, achieve, or attain (a goal).
4. To fail to attend or perform: never missed a day of work.
5.
a. To leave out; omit.
b. To let go by; let slip: miss a chance.
6. To escape or avoid: narrowly missed crashing into the tree.
7. To discover the absence or loss of: I missed my book after getting off the bus.
8. To feel the lack or loss of.

Perfect description of my life at this current moment. :P

xoxos.

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2010-01-21T20:52:00.006+08:00

One month?
Just a month?
It feels like several lifetimes.

-sigh-

We'll be alright, won't we. (:

I love you.

世界上有一种爱叫做Super Junior···
世界上有一种执着叫做E.L.F···
世界上有一种永恒从李特开始，到E.L.F结束···

Why do I feel like writing my reflective essay on this topic?! ._.
:/ :| :\
I don't even know if I can pull it off. -shrug-
Lalala.

For a lifetime I’ll be by your side, I do
Loving you, I do
Cherishing you through the snow and rain, I do
I’ll protect you, My love

xoxos.

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2010-01-20T22:44:00.006+08:00

I'm (close to being) broke.
But happy.
Extremely happy.
(Okay not over-the-top happy because in order for that to happen I'll need to 1) have cleared all work (not going to happen in a long time) 2) booked decent tickets to SSII 3) became coherent again 4) got into CAP 5) formed a group for YFC. But then again we should learn to be contented. :P)

I finally own a Super Junior "album" :D
^^ (okay maybe it doesn't count as an album because it's the SSII CD... which I didn't need to buy, really, because I have all the audio tracks downloaded (reason 32309 why I love SJdaba) anyway... But argh it's a Suju album. After months of not seeing Super Junior CDs in stock ANYWHERE you're like despo to buy any album at all and thus will lung for the first album that you see. :P It's human/fangirl/ELF nature.)
I'm still waiting for the DVD. :PP (and will probably starve for a month or something to afford it :D)

:D

I shall ban myself from buying stuff from the following shops:
1) Snack stall in school
2) Baked Delight stall in school
3) Comics Connection
4) any supermarket
5) any "external" shop that sells food (as in out of school -.-) beside SweetTalk (ahem my bubble tea biase. Ahem.)
6) MOELC stall
7) vending machines
Until like, further notice. (Note how they're like all food-related -.-|||)
I get this feeling I'm going to fail.
Whatever.

I haven't done any work yet and look at the time now.
._.
I give myself a pat on the back for failing at life.

/edit/
I love them for including Chinese translations for the lyrics in the CD.
:D

Omg wth the CD can't be read with my laptop -.-
My laptop's CD reader officially sucks \O/
._.
._____________.

/editedit/
I hate Zhang Xuedi for being able to "skip" 3 SIAs -.-
Teachers please be kind to us and approve our ideas already. ._.
(And GAH CHEM SIA PROPOSAL STUPID STUPID.)
(No one ever writes books about chem cars, I tell you.)
(And I think NLB recently shifted their entire collection of chem books to the repositary or something -.- which is like, oh-so-really convenient. -.-)
._.

I'm not busy but I have no time to do work.
How is this so?!

xoxos.

brief.

2010-01-19T23:34:00.005+08:00

213th post <3> ^^
Too bad I don't have time to type much ._. I'm like falling asleep at the keyboard -.-

Discovery of the day:
Too all ny girls residing in CCK, if you're lucky, you can actually wake up at 6.15am and get to school on time.
:P
IF you're lucky. :D (I speak from experience.) (Because I didn't want to waste $15 on taxi fares -.-)

I love CLEP :DDD
And fangirling about Guo Jingming (sorry lah lazy switch to chinese) :D And shouting that "JI MI IS A GUY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" repeatedly and getting "disowned" by Fang and utilizing the powers of unity and... yeah.
(While the BSP people do presentations. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.)
And I rerealised that Chenls is very nice :DD

Oh yeah speaking of which, CAP is officially off my mind. (I HOPE.)
So I shall happily forget about it for now and attempt to write stuff. :/ (Or rather dig out time to write stuff.)
(And Yixing informed me about the fact that the CAP committee (or whatever you call it) bans work about homosexuality -.- -.- -.- This is called not fair. :D)

I like ALit~
Although I epicly failed my quiz today with a 26/50~ -.- and yeah everyone was ()@#$*)(@#*)@(#!@@#ed about it (and it counts for CA lah ._. :xxxxxxx)

If 213 was to take this quiz:
1) someone would definitely ask if it's graded like the first time the teachers tell us we'll have a quiz on Macbeth.
2) everyone will mug hard for it like a week in advance or something (except me).
3) everyone'll get good marks except me, so I'm the only one with the lousy score in class :DD

How WE took this quiz:
1) we just found out that this counts for CA1 today (when the teacher casually mentioned it).
2) everyone was complaining about how we don't/can't/didn't remember anything.
3) there were actually quite a lot of people who scored something like my score -.- -.- -.- which tells you about how failed we are... (I was like creating my own philosophical emo quotes with the FIB questions lah XDD however my creativity wasn't -ahem- acknowledged. -ahem.- XD)

Okay I should really re-adopt the 213 mentality -.- :P And be like Xinyi and study. :PPP

I think the HIV virus is cool. In some sick twisted way. :P
And ahh I officially have this strange fetish for white blood cells :P XD

Whee SIAs~
I think by the end of this year Shihui Xinyi Daphne Xuedi and I will be sick of seeing one another's faces -.- We're doing like the 5th consecutive project together?! ._. :|
And I really hope they don't reject our idea for Chinese SIA -ahem- but it's a bit hard to SURVEY on huh =.= :P
LALALA LA SIA~
Oh in case anyone wants to know, International Friendship Day is on the first Sunday of August every year~~ XD

And uh, we're really looking forward to selling candy at the Squares event held at the orphanage! :D
b^^d

Chem cars are stupid things. :D

I need to find things to fill up my stupid retarded portfolio with T.T Or I'll seriously panic and hate myself really soon. :|

LALALALA.

Okay shall go sleep before I zonk out completely on Romain tomorrow.

(I realise I ended up typing a lot anyway. -shrug- ah well.)

xoxos.

de.

2010-01-18T22:24:00.004+08:00

1) Super Show II tickets are flying away.
2) Work's piling up.
3) SIA discussions are ineffective \O/ :PP Lalalalalala (LA... ._.)
4) Money is flying away (in non-food directions -.-)
5) I look like an Indian on the photocopied photograph on my CAP application form -.- (and they'll be so impressed to see an Indian applying for Chinese CAP and let me in, no? :DD)
6) Ms Li's math lessons... started out amusingly. -.- XD on a very -ahem- interesting topic indeed XDD
7) I just realised I don't know what's Operation Beautiful despite seeing all those post-its that Xuan's put up on the mirror -.- -.- -.- Then I went to the website XD and it's freaking cool! I want to leave post-its in library books!!! XDDDDD
8) My Bio's still undone and it's 10.50pm :DD
9) I don't remember a thing for Macbeth (I've given up on chionging through the text and am reading Sparknotes XD)
10) I don't even know what's the topic for the CLEP quiz tomorrow (and can't remember the history).
11) I have no idea how to write reflective essays well and have no idea what topic to write it on. :D
12) I'm entirely amused that the LA teacher (I can't remember how to spell his surname -.-) likes my EOYs compo. A lot. ._. (Okay I like it ~~a lot~~ too but I've always thought I have weird taste.)
:P

I'm (un)offically half Singaporean half Chinese (PRC-Chinese that is) now :| Good thing is that I FINALLY GET TO APPLY FOR MY STUPID DARLING (... contradiction much) EESIS =.= after paying inhumane ny school fees for 2 years =.= :P Bad thing is that eh, I completely don't feel like a Singaporean? I mean, in P5 I really enjoyed going for NDP dress rehearsals and loved standing on the benches at the old Kallang Stadium with my friends and screaming along to all the National Day songs :P But still, it doesn't mean I feel like a Singaporean.
But then again something must be seriously wrong if I DO feel like a Singaporean -.- After all China is still well, my roots (: I've never thought myself as someone patriotic but maybe I am after all (influenced by all the "propaganda" in all the textbooks esp for 语文课 ._. XD But after all it has to be something worthy to be proud of, before we can actually GET influenced. And I seriously love China history (although I can't remember a thing ~~which reminds me about how I'm really going to flunk the CLEP quiz tomorrow~~ ~~speaking of flunking quizzes I'm going to flunk Macbeth too~~ ._.) ^^

So this entire system of Singapore granting citizenship to former-foreigners... doesn't make sense to me. I mean isn't it obvious that no matter what, their hearts will never truly lie with Singapore -.- Our birth countries are refered to as our "motherland" for a reason. There're actual emotional ties involved that can't be severed and -

Okay I think I've listened to Limjia complain about this too many times -.- But it's true.
And I don't have an answer for this. :/

It's not really fair for Singapore so to speak, if I say apply for EESIS with my current Singapore citizen status and deciding to convert back to PRC citizen when I'm 18 -.-
Then again life isn't fair.

Okay at least this solves my worries about being barred out fo Taiwan during GCP and watch enviously while all my fellow CLEPers go crazy shopping + eating + etc in Taiwan while I sulk away in Singapore or something :P (Okay granted I think I would then get to go mainland China... AND I'VE NEVER BEEN TO BEIJING BEFORE = epic fail... ._. Ah well.)

I can't seem to make time for writing letters anymore ._______.
I'M SO SORRY XUAN RACHEL FIONA AUDREY ._. (okay except I don't think any of them's going to see this except Xuan -.-) ._.
In fact I can't seem to make time for writing anything anymore - besides this blog and VERY OCCASIONALLY SNS but that's usually like uh, reflections after reading other people's works and quoting stuff and etc. :/
Oh man time management skills ._.

I saw this on OB:

The thing that is really hard and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of being yourself.

Actually beauty has been seeming (my grammar fails) like an overrated topic to me, really.
But then again I care about my looks too and just because I'm not that obsessive about it doesn't mean others aren't. :\
:P

There is just so much that time cannot erase.
Evanescence's got it wrong.

Oh man what's happened to my blogging standards as of lately.

My Miracle. <3>

xoxos.

.

2010-01-17T15:34:00.005+08:00

LOF (Laws of Fangirlism):

1) Everyone recognises Jaejoong.
2) Everyone recognises Heechul.
3) Everyone recognises Shindong.
4) Everyone likes Ryeowook first in Super Junior and then move on to their respective new targets of fangirlism (except me. I liked Ryeowooks's ~~sweetheart~~ fellow music lover first :P and look at where I am now =.=)

:D

/edit/
Kooyoo pikyo Kim Kibum, sarangheyo Kim Kibum~!
(Thanks Shihui for the romanization XD =.=)
Jungmunjin~~
Yueling & I's new wish is for Jumunjin to be a great success then they'll come to Singapore for promotions~~~~!!!!!!! :DDDDD

Eunteuk = LOVE~

Cho Kyuhyun, stop having solos. -.- XD
Lee Hyukjae, stop looking hotter with every new photo of you -.-

:P

xoxos.

willow.

2010-01-17T00:45:00.003+08:00

I've gotten used to writing 310 instead of 213 but not 2010 instead of 2009.
-.-
I tell myself it's because the change from 213 to 310 is greater/more apparent than the change from 2010 to 2009 (it doesn't feel like a new year -.-).
Maybe I'm just lying to myself, maybe I'm inappropriately moving on.
I don't know.

Sec 3 life is getting crazy with all the SIAs and stuff ._. I haven't had time to write yet :X
Ah gah.

I want the smilehyuk hoodie ._.
Thinking about asking my grandparents to buy for me from China :/
:P
Lalalalalala.

Heard that (some of ) the Korean fans have access to Suju's mobile numbers :O :o :O
OMG I'm so freaking jealous :P

Ahh Super Show II -crosses fingers and pray that 1) my mom will be free on that day 2) tickets don't get sold out too fast (aka before my mom can tell me if she's free ._.)- (Siwon you'll pray for me right XD ^^)

深蓝 updates are looooooove :D
I love the Eunhae in it 8D (I conclude I've officially converted from a JOY to a 2Hfan :P)
Butbut zuishidonghai left us hanging at a... very nice place lorh... -.- :PP
Whee~

I'm too lazy to read Macbeth lah -.-
Yay.

Need more time and more money. \O/

/edit @ 3.16pm/
My Saturday flew away like this: woke up - ate lunch - went out shopping with mom (uneventful, didn't see anything I really liked) - came home - read fanfics - discussed SIA (unproductive ._.) - lazed around on com - sleep.
-.-

Today: woke up - read fanfics - eat lunch - laze around on com - read fanfics - now.

.___________.

I suck. :DDDDD

Okay I need to go do work now =.=

xoxos.

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2010-01-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

I swear that if I die someday, the cause of my death will be Lee Hyukhae.
So now you know who to find to 报仇 in case that really happens. ;)

xoxos.

twice.

2010-01-15T20:22:00.003+08:00

Hi operating in sleep deprived mood ~~= emoish post coming up. I think.~~ :P

:D

Okay well my grandparents just left for China :P
I guess I'm going to miss them, not in those kind of hysterical-crying kind of missing that I used to go through up till I was 11, but sort of like, "oh, I'll need to take care of this myself now." :P
Realised that nowadays I spend more time interacting with internet than with people :X Which is seriously, BAD. Uh-oh.

Thinking about people and stuff. :P
I want to/need to expand my social circleeeeee. (By means unknown to mankind. \O/)
Hmm, there're people whom I want to meet and get to know better :P There's really cool people in my batch kay XDD Whee~

I think Yixing and I (okay maybe just me) are the most failed "non-speaking roles" ever XDD okay we shall feel very proud of ourselves for that :D
(And I completely didn't know Antigone's Oedipus's daughter -___- (not as if I know what's her story about in the first place...) :P)

And I proclaim that LA + Chinese = major slack fest -.- -.- -.- aka 2 hours of randoming with random thoughts / random work that needs to be done etc :P

Studies I won't bother linking to have shown that globally, reading is increasing, but less and less of that time is spent reading books. What with a Facebook wall, Twitter feed, texts, blogs and stupid comedy lists to read every day, most of us have reached our word limit by the time we go cruising the library for sad-looking women. I don't think books will ever really "die," but aside from anti-books like Twilight and Anna Nicole Smith biographies, they're certainly not hogging the spotlight these days.

Writers at crack.com speaks truth.
This is why I need to go back to physical reading again -.-

I swear to not slack off this weekend and do constructive stuff (e.g. writing fanfics XD what it's constructive as compared to some stuff that I choose to do okay :P)

^^

Whee everyone's falling sick at some point of time nowadays -.-
HA I WAS SICK BEFORE EVERYONE ELSE XDD WHEE~ (-.- ignore me.)
Take care of yourselves people :D

Zzz my mom said that MAYBE she can take time off work and bring me to KL for SS... Maybe... Something about seeing how later... BUT LATER THE TICKETS WILL BE GONE ._. And there're details to settle :/
And on top of that "maybe" isn't a yes. ://////////
But at least "maybe" is better than no. :P

Okay I should really get to sleeping now. Whee.
:P

And may tomorrow be a nice and constructive day 8D

Missed opportunities.
No more.

^^

xoxos.

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2010-01-15T17:33:00.004+08:00

Once in a lifetime
Means there's no second chance.
(This line just randomly popped into my head when I was bathing -.-)
SUPER SHOW II.............
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I officially ~~hate~~ am freaking jealous of Shihui and Dom :P
GAH NEED TO FIND SOME WAY TO CONVINCE MY PARENTS T.T

-ahem yeah if you still haven't realised, this is a fangirl all the way post. :P Back off slowly if needed. :D-

金基范表示“我从未想过退出SuperJunior，一次也没有”

fans和音乐界人士都在怀疑基范是否因为和公司有矛盾而不能和SuperJunior一起参加三辑“SorrySorry”的宣传。也有传言说他退出了SuperJunior，和其他成员关系不佳。基范从三月SorrySorry首次演出开始就缺席了SuperJunior的活动，直到12月的年末音乐颁奖典礼也没有出席。

对于这个问题，基范说“我不能参加宣传是因为要为电影“注文津”和戏剧“午睡”排练。我觉得演戏也是SUperJunior活动的众多领域之一。不参加音乐表演不表示我不是SuperJunior的成员了。”

他继续说道“我知道有fans在说我没有退出但是他们都很担心。上个月SuJu在金唱片获得了大赏，我每天都会打电（？）话给成员聊天。可能我没有和他们住在一起，但是心中充满了喜悦，比任何人都开心。”
但是基范也说他不能确定是否从现在开始就要和SuperJunior一起参加宣传了。他说“目前我只考虑出演戏剧和电视剧。要再和公司商量才能决定是参加4辑还是个人活动还是今后只专注于演戏。”

新闻来源：isplus

翻译：teukiteuki
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-nods-
Ahh omg Kibum I freaking miss you (and your new hair = ultra cuteness :D).
And SME if you dare to let Kibum be away for 四辑 I'll go to Korea to vandalise the SME building. :D

Omg 四辑. Did I just type that.
4th album.
四辑.
真的要开始了吗.
真的会开始了吗.

Oh. Em. Gee.
I dunno.

不知道你们还能走多久, 不知道还能陪你们走多久
所以剩下的, 只有珍惜
^^

不可以疲惫
打起精神来

-salut- YES MR PARK! XD

Omg Eunteuk is like the emo moodswing pair =.=

Ahh Kibum's movie~ ^^

xoxos.

realisations.

2010-01-14T20:19:00.004+08:00

LOLs of the day:

1) Maths lessons are going to be amusing for the next 2 weeks (aka whenever the teacher mentions f(x) -.-).
(BUT MRS WONG IS TEMPORARILY ABANDONING OUR CLASS T.T Okay I trust that Mrs Wong's telling us the truth and that Ms Li Jiawen is a nice and good and lovable teacher (uh except I don't know how she looks like so -.-) but we love Mrs Wong D: )

2) ELFs are, EVERYWHERE.
And Lijia knows about Sorry Sorry. I'm officially amoosed.

3) SUPER JUNIOR IS NEVER GOING TO COME TO SINGAPORE/ANYWHERE NEARER TO SINGAPORE THAN KUALA LUMPUR -.-
I WANT TO GO LAH ._.
But it's like, quite impossible ._. although it's during March holidays but no one is going to go with me! My mom's shop in Malaysia is at Johor Baru =.= completely doesn't help... Then my grandparents are going back to China tomorrow so I can't even drag them to like accompany me to KL ._.

ELF: Heechul oppa… I didn’t get the tickets… what to do… does this mean I won’t see Heechul oppa anymore?
Heechul: How come you’re not trying harder?

Uh, thanks Chul -.-
GAH IDKDKDKDKDKDK.
It's like, recently we're really feeling that, we need to treasure the present x_x
4th album. SSII(@KL). Etc.
Who knows?
:/

4) NYJF = love :D
"我们给你爱的鼓励!" -clapclap clapclapclap clapclapclapclap clapclap-
"再来一次!"
"买一送一!"
"最后一次!"
"Encore!" -silence-
"停停停别拍了!"
I swear today is like the hardest I've laughed in a long time in the crazy-insane-completely!shameless-nyjfer way :PP
I missed it yeah ._.
PRODPRODPROD <3> :D
I'm really looking forward to spending this prod year with my lovable seniors and just as lovable juniors (okay I sound majorly weird now :/) :DD
To quote various paedophilic people, everyone in nyjf's so cute~! :DD
^^ ^^ ^^

5) Bio lessons put me to sleep -.-

6) Relief trainee teachers... generally all suck and their lessons are utterly not worth listening to -.- Because their lessons = reading from powerpoint = can be easily done at home -.-

7) Calculating magnification of biological drawings is a very challenging task :P

8) (Okay this is like LOL of yesterday but anyway) Iodine is an amazingly cool substance.

:D

Okay got to go like speed-bathe and do compo and edit eh, CAP. :X And print IH notes and think of a plotline for a tragedy trilogy. :D

LALALALALALALALALALA.

xoxos.

eighth.

2010-01-13T21:18:00.004+08:00

我在等一个人在等我的永恒.

Eternity. ^^

Best suggestion of the year (okay which is only uh, 13 (13!) days long up to now but anyway...):
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (21:16):
i wanted to flail to you about how i can completely imagine donghae acting in lin dalang's role
xDDDDD
having dorky hair then acting really stupid
then suddenly cutting hair and becoming very shuai
;DDDD

OMG HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I think I'll never be satisfied with seeing Luo Zhi Xiang acting the role anymore after this le lorh :P

Why do I feel so free (beside people like Xuedi... okay who's crazy but yeah anyway.) ._.
AHH YFC ._.
SEARCHING FOR PEOPLE TO DO WITH ME ._. (Uh I won't be some slacker okay (yeah I'm aware I said that last year too but I'M MAKING AN EFFORT THIS YEAR IN SEC3 OKAY ._.)
Lalalalala whee :P

Yay I failed 听写 today \O/
I bet Yangls will be super ._.ed when she sees my book :X
Whee. =.=
And I conclude I forgot how to use a microscope -.-
And that CME with Cails is super amusing and not boring at all = 8Dness.

Oh I shall mention how I fell asleep at 8/9 last night and woke up at 3am to bathe + attempt memorizing chinese (which failed) -.-
:D

Lalala screwed biological clocks -.-
I'm like in some state of sleep-deprivedness... I'm sleeping super soundly on the bus nowadays = bad because I'll start piaoing all over the place and irritate the person sitting beside me :x

I should like start talking to people in 310 :P (esp someone who's just sitting across the aisle from me and who likes kpop too -.- sorry I don't know what's her name yet :X Oh okay just confirmed with Shihui. So she's Yingyi. Ah. And I shunbian confirmed who's Tricia. And I keep thinking Siqi's name is Liqi for some unknown reasons -.- Okay I'm so sorry guys I know I fail.)
Whee.

I have like 2390million things that I want to read -.-
Yay.
And another like 10+ books that I want to buy from China (and if my grandparents attempt to help me buy them in China and mailing them over it's going to cost like Y100 for the 运费 alone or something -.- :D) -.-

Okay I need to go do the Chinese thing and figure out how to 托物言志 =.=
1) I can't describe things to save my life.
2) I'm completely politically incorrect so any 志-s that interest me are probably going to make the teacher think "这学生的价值观出了什么问题啊" = = (which is true but I'm like attempting to maintain the image of a relatively guai person here XD :DD)

I think I should really stop being an obsessive fangirl :P
(And become a non-obsessive fangirl 8D)

Fanfic ideas are swirling in my head -.- -.- -.-
I'm going to be like, the "creator" of the EunKyuHae OT3 HAHAHA (okay no I think someone has written it before me, except... haven't found that person yet. :P XD)
(Uh that is when I have time to sit down and write fanfics -.-)

OKAYOKAY CHINESE NOW ._.
:D

Whee my blog is getting boring 8D
I shall find some time to be controversal again \O/

xoxos.

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2010-01-12T20:22:00.002+08:00

"我们跟了你了, 相信你."

<3

I love KTR. :D

Headache man -.-

/edit/

本来长的很快的头发，自从又长了一岁以后感觉比以前长的慢了
东海看着几个月前我的二对八，五对五等等这些发型，对我说

东海：哥的发型真的都很适合的你呢
我：你也改变一下发型吧。什么时候了还做偶像发型啊
东海：恩….是吗？

所以我们就像是乞丐兄弟一样一直留着长头发
不久前，他自己却说坚持不下去了，背叛我去剪了头发、
然后看着我的发型说：

东海：哥，你也剪点吧，有点像乞丐啊
我：不留胡须就算不错了
东海，你当我是弟弟的话，你就听我的话去剪头发吧~
我：我头发长度和对你的爱是成比例的，好像长度还不够啊
东海：那样的话都写在哪里啊？真能说好话ㅡㅡ

现在再也没有乞丐发型了，我感觉很孤单了
应该让弘时做乞丐发型，嘿嘿…

(Ahem I stole this "illegally" from 澈吧 = = ah well whatever. :D)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA CAN I JUST SAY, I KNEW IT? :P

Ahh omg 4th album CB CB CB~~~~~
Pleasepleasepleaseplease.
-I wanna see a (even)man(-er) Kim Ryeowook :D-

I have a biase in life by the name of Lee Donghae.
I have a reason to smile in life by the name of Lee Hyukjae.
I have a motivation in life by the name of Cho Kyuhyun.
I have a VIP (uh no not the bigbang fanclub) in life by the name of Park Jungsoo.
I have a group of people to treasure with my life by the name of Super Junior.
:D

xoxos.

inappropriate.

2010-01-12T00:35:00.004+08:00

2nd week of school and I'm wishing for a holiday.

O.O

I NEED LIKE, TIME.
=.=

GAH.

(And I need sleep too.)

Chem worksheets drive me insane.

Things I need to do:
GET A MEMO PAD -.-
Whee.

Sec1 auditions tomorrow~
Supposedly Yutong and I are supposed to be in charge of interviewing one group of people?!
They're trusting me to interview people?!
O_O Wow okay.

I'm amused that people're calling me cute now thanks to my (pushed back up) fringe -.-
Because I'm irritated by it getting into my eyes all the time =.=
Whee.

AHH TIMETIMETIMETIMETIME T.T

三年一月 ♥

Utter failure.

I still don't feel that I belong in 310 yet.
More time needed yeah?
:/

I NEED TO LIKE, CATCH UP WITH THE WORLD =.=
Gosh.

xoxos.

CAP.

2010-01-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

Click for bigger picture.

I shall choose between feeling amused and feeling insulted.

XDD

(AND YES I'M COLLATING IT AT LAST I FEEL LIKE DANCING WITH JOY \O/)

xoxos.

powers.

2010-01-10T12:38:00.003+08:00

Everyone should have taken Yuhan's speech last year in LA seriously because honestly, the subconscious is a very powerful thing.
Like how I keep subconsciously turning off my alarm clock in the morning without even hearing it = I'm not awoken (is there even such a word -.-). -.-

Fantastic~

Okay need to go chiong work :P
(And someone needs to tear me away from Hi My Sweetheart.)
(I realise that if you watch dramas for the plots... you're much better off reading books. -.- so therefore watch dramas for the actors' acting. :D)
(That, folks, is LOL No. Idk-what. :D)

/edit/
SERIOUSLY I PROCLAIM THAT SOTD QUALITIES ARE DROPPING TO ROCKBOTTOM LAH PLEASE -.-

Oedipus Rex the dino~ :D

I think I blabber too much.

/edit/

Let's look at how I'm tackling my homework.

1) Memorize Chinese + worksheet: worksheet I'm copying from Shihui (since they went through it in class anyway -.- -.- -.-) :D
2) French biography of my mom -.-: going to do soon. justify for yourself how soon will "soon" be.
3) Research on ancient greek tragedy: done. basically c&ped info lah so yeah.
4) French notes: ahem.
5) READ MACBETH -.-: ahem.
6) Find something to show and tell about ._.: completely planning to chiong this last minute.
7) 4 Chem worksheets + 1 Chem prac (which are in class): brackets are self-explanatory.
8) Research for bio SIA + chem SIA + think about math SIA...?: ignoring.
9) CAP: doing now
10) Math assignment CIR: getting Shihui to teach me everything tomorrow :D Because I don't know how to do and Mrs Wong went through a lot of questions anyway (according to Yulin) :D

:D
I know I'm brilliant.
CAPCAPCAPCAPCAP. :D

xoxos.

double.

2010-01-09T17:25:00.002+08:00

#1 310 has a class blog now :D HAHAHAHAHA ^^
#2 I HAVE A FRINGE NOW HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (which is less failed than the previous one... though it's hard to become more failed lah but anyway...)

:D
Two reasons to be happaye :D

Oh and this is post no. 200 ^^ ^^ ^^
(I blog at amazing rates seriously -.- this blog isn't even half a year old =.=)

:D

-thinks about the homework I have to do-
._.
(I updated my to-do list btw (: :D)

Whee~

Okay shall ATTEMPT to go off and research about greek tragedies? :P
(or edit CAP. :P)

:D

xoxos.

;

2010-01-09T01:53:00.001+08:00

How do I live without you?
How do I breathe without you?

xoxos.

sand.

2010-01-08T20:24:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone this is an update to show that no I haven't died from my (not even that high) fever + slight stomach flu (which was so freaking slight that I don't really feel anything other than one night of stomach displeasures and - okay I shall skip this part XD). -.-
(And I didn't even go to see a doctor so if the school insist I get a MC I'm dead meat. :P)

Basically this post is to say, I've got great friends.
(:
Friends who're willing to move from the very-nice-to-slack spot at the back of the class (where we can basically do whatever we want) to the 1st/2nd row just because I want to work hard again for French this year and not get a B3 again -.- So yes I love you guys Jasmine Hilary and Huahua :D
Friends who don't mind me "stealing" their French-English electronic dictionary (I HAVE to ask Yuhan where on earth did she get that) every so often (because I basically need a dictionary for every other French word I see...). So thank you so much Yuhan and I love you! :D
Friends who remember to put me in their group when I'm absent for SIAs (: Love you Daphne Shihui Xuedi~ (: (For sparing me the fate from failing my Math SIA in SMO...)
Friends who enjoy smsing me horh XDD Yueling ah yeah I love you in the gay way :D (Whatever the gay way is.)
Friends who call me for a long long time :P Yes Qingxiao this is referring to you :D You know I love you so yeah :D And Jasmine I already love you once so enough is enough so yay. XDD
Friends who will agree to do something that you've saboed them into doing... :P and will do it even when you aren't there to accompany them (sorry!) ._. LOVE YOU MINGHUI AND JIALING~

Okay this isn't supposed to be a dedi post. But anyway.
Sometimes when the whole world is moving beyond control you've got to hold on to the people around.
^^

I'm... amused that the new NYJF instructor is my... Chinese teacher?!
Minghui I now understand how you've felt for the past 2 years.
And that I pity myself. XD
AND THEY GOT TO EAT DOUGHNUTS T.T T.T T.T
D:

Okay after finding out the homework from Shihui... I feel like dying \O/
Who want to bet that I can finish 4 chem worksheets and 1 prac in one day? -.-
When I don't even know what's the topic?!
=.=
Yay.

And oh gosh, I have to go memorize the Chinese thing :P It's so CLEP/culture-ish lah ._. Whee.
(Okay the writing's quite pretty actually but ah well anyway.)

Shihui: oh and you have a stack of cooks and papers under your table.
Nice to know I've got chefs waiting for me. :D Save lunch money horh XD

Lalalalala I want to know what Suju merchandise did all those people take ah from Xuedi's collection in my absence to snatch everything away from them XDD
(Oh yeah I love you too Xuedi :DDDD I want to start reading 幻城 soon, it looks super cool and very my-type XDD)
^^

Most awesome MLIA of the day that I've read

Last year, there was a new freshman at my school who looked just like Severus Snape: thin and gangly, black hair that would fall in his face, etc. The resemblance was so striking that a lot of kids, myself included, have only ever called him Severus (which he responds to). The irony? His real name is James. MLIA.

^^

Chen LS isn't replying my email about CAP -.-
Whee...
(I sent it to the correct person right ._.)

Lalala for some reason I'm watching 海派甜心 now ._.
Show's a cute actor lah :P For some reason I like the dramas he act in? (Not Hot Shot because Wuzun completely throws me off :P)
(And half my motivation for watching the show is to wait for the episode when Show changes his hairstyle XDD Mushroom head ah~ XD)
Granted the plot is sounding utterly cliche and predictable and retarded and everything... but ah well once again I've never figured out why so many people liked Fated to Love You -.- (okay a bit no link but whatever. Shows people have weird taste okay :P)
(Ah waiting for Love Buffet is like, torture -.- Whee. I still like PLMITish dramas the most ^^ (AotPB is like some failed version of something in that genre aka detective style films lah :P but the actors are :D XDD and actually the actors are the sole motivation in me watching the movie XD okay digress le.)

Oh yeah getting another haircut tomorrow I think? :P
Fringe ah, it's a great question. :P
I shall just attempt getting bangs and if it looks terrible I'll go back to restraining it under my hairband :D
^^

Sometimes I get this weird urge to start planning out my future and get an idea about where I want to go.
But plans rarely work out, right?
I mean last year up till like July I was this person who wanted nothing more than taking trip science and bsp and be a happy person in 313. Then over August I was suddenly, omg what should I do with my future and was suddenly all HPish (which I didn't get into lah but anyway) and humans-obsessed and ended up changing my subject combs to CBALit+CLEP which I'm super happy with now. :P
Then until August last year I've been wanting to be nothing more than a psychologist (and the number of people who want to be psychologists nowadays is SCARY). :P Now I'm like hoping for a career in the journalism field. But that's just for now. Who knows what'll happen over the next few months?
Proves that people change. Plans change. (:
Lalalalala.
But having a guide helps.

~~Is there an Idiot's Guide to Top Universities or something along that line? ._. Because I need one.~~
Whee.
I have like this highly unrealistic dream to get into an US college, an Ivy League college, maybe YALE, for university studies.
But yeah, it's highly unrealistic. I'm not even among the top of the top and I'm aspiring to be the top of the top of the top. -.-
Gotta keep on dreaming. :P
Lalalalalalalalalala.

Okay why am I thinking about this now ._____________.
Gotta go touch up CAP :D
-has given up on trying to complete another piece to add to the portfolio, now focusing on doing a proper intro and etc so that when I submit my portfolio on Monday it'll be nice and proper (and I'll have to print out everything again, oh I mourn for my printer :P)-
(No Chenls still hasn't replied me, I'll just assume it's fine for me to submit it on Monday ._. I WON'T LET THIS OUT OF ALL THINGS STOP ME :P Okay fine maybe my portfolio's sort of shabby -.- and not good enough... But I'll try. Gah.)

Lalalalala okay shall like go bathe now or something :P
Whee~
(And my CAP portfolio has like the stupidest name ever, called 隐形的翅膀 because it's an Angela Chang song and because I still have that RXM quote that I mentioned on SNS stuck in my head :P Lalalalalalalala :P I won't be surprised if 21029 people used it before me lah -.-)

:P

xoxos.

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2010-01-05T23:28:00.003+08:00

Eunhae is officially everywhere in my life.
-.-

Whee.

My CAP is officially not going to come out alive (or rather I officially won't come out alive from chionging CAP.) :D

Lala SMP...
Oh please let us get a topic ._.

xoxos.

unsettled.

2010-01-04T18:17:00.007+08:00

Weird feelings.

:D

Yesterday night I actually had slight insomnia -.- my brain wouldn't stop working and I keep thinking about 213 and 310 and how I'm going to be a Sec3 as soon as I go back to school again and CAP and CAP and layout and designing and titles and stories and plots and CCA and CAP and 213 and meeting another batch of juniors and... you get the idea.
So I had to get up and get my handphone and read a fanfic before I fell asleep at 3. -.-
So I slept for 2.5 hours last night 8DD yay.

This morning I was attacked by 213ers just when I was about to go out of the classroom and rush for CCA... XDD
Then basically the morning turned into some 213-visiting-session -.- ^^
Then we had an unplanned 213 class lunch lah -.- Like everyone automatically came to the table -.- XDD
It felt nice (:
~~I dunno how long will we keep doing this. Sigh.~~

310 is, uh, okay. :P
I think we're still quite ._. and unenthu and bleah-ish currently but hello, first day. -.- Even 213 only became all high when we were... 213. Not even that much as 113 lah (I remember how Angjie had to chase us for stuff XD and how I always uh, don't respond to her ._.)

The teachers seem alright to me so far, but there's completely new teachers taking us for all the languages (even alit -.- oh wait maybe the teacher on the timetable teaches geog :P) ._.
Looking forward to alit tomorrow and CLEP. I wanna see how it's like (and please don't disappoint me.)
(And I'm utterly ignoring the fact I haven't flipped open Macbeth (I keep thinking we're studying Hamlet -.-) yet 8D CAP.)

I'm utterly amused by Gin (is it Gin...)'s Jap teacher's name.
HaeEun.
-Lee Donghae you've finally... dominated Lee Hyukjae. Ahem. XD-

AND THEY (they being the cleaners) THREW AWAY MY BEAR (that I left abandoned in the 213 classroom throughout the holidays...). -.-
Okay not like I liked it that much but still... :P Ah well.

I'm utterly amused by how everything's like suddenly different after 1 holiday -.-
Like the stores are all selling different stuff (with cheaper green tea and more ex fruit juice... and the apple soda water that tastes like H2O apple -.-), and the new "plate disposing" place is... so... cool? (Is that even the appropriate word to describe it?)

And I just feel that there's something weird about being called "sec3s" (as I typed "sec3s" my fingers subconsciously hit "sec2s" lah please ._.), same thing about telling people that I'm from 310, about not needing to look up anymore when the teacher goes "monitor and assistant monitor please take note", about sitting at "The 213 Table" and listening to everyone talk about the new teachers and realising oh, we have different teachers now.
Sigh.

And like, wow. We have a second batch of juniors already. O___________O.
Wow.
(And there're 4 CCKPians in nanyang this year! :DD Including Lester's sister -.- and Minghui's sister -.- XDD)
And seriously the school destroyed SBGE -.- (Okay not like I was in GE in the first place but after being called a part of SBGE for 2 years you kind of care about what happens to it... and when a lot of your friends are under GEP... and when if the school didn't abolish SBGE you would have been in a different class with totally different people... :P)

Oh I almost walked into 308 today -.- -.- -.- Yay me.

Summary of the day: everything changed. Everything changes. Everything is changing.
:P
So why am I not changing? Why am I excluded from "everything"? :PP (As always?)

Lalalala.

I'm still that person who talks too much during self-intros. 8DD
I didn't realise until Daphne and Shihui were commenting about how I said a lot of things (yeah I said like the most stuff lah please XD) and Gin said I said a lot of things too when we were in Sec1 XDD
Meaning I'm still the same person, self-intro-wise. XDD
Hmm.

I dunno I'm still expecting myself to go back to 213 tomorrow. :/
Sigh.

Lalalalalalalala.

My printer ah. (I. Need. To. Print. My. NYAA. Form. And. My. LA. Compo. ._..)
My allowance ah. (I owe Qingxiao like... a lot of money. 8D)
Whee.

Okay shall go chiong CAP.
(And I still need to call up various innocent Sec1s to ask them when they want to come for interviews :P)
(Whee.)

yes we will. ^^

xoxos.

mlia.

2010-01-03T15:48:00.003+08:00

Today I dreamt about something. I don't actually remember what was in the dream, except I know I was with the people I love most (read: 213, Super Junior, Animorphs, some people from NYJF) and we were all sitting together, happy. It's the best dream I've ever had. MLIA.

(No that didn't actually come from the MLIA website. It's what happened to me today. :D)

xoxos.

.

2010-01-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

Lee Donghae, I love you.
Lee Hyukjae, I love you.

<3.

想唱一辈子的 Marry You 给你们听.

xoxos.

happy new year (:

2010-01-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TOUT LES MONDES~~~~

Here's to a new year, new beginnings, new life, and everything.

Excuse me while I go back to rewatching Pi Li MIT to get my mood for CAP XD

SUPER JUNIOR I LOVE YOU. ^^
EVERYONE, I LOVE YOU! :D

xoxos.

last.

2009-12-31T20:31:00.004+08:00

Well maybe I should say something deep philosopical emo etc on the last day of 2009 but fact is, I have no time (because I just spent all day FINALLY finishing Thanks for the Memories -.- Yeah I know I started reading in November or something but I've been NEGLECTING physical reading okay :P).
Because I feel so utterly tempted to kill CAP now because I thought I had enough ideas to put together a decent portfolio.
1) I haven't even "materialized" those ideas yet
and 2) I only have 6 ideas. All of which sounds like they'll turn out to be a flop.
3) I'm not even good enough for CAP lah seriously, I think I'm better at expressing myself in English these days = total epic fail.
So yeah I need to go back to tearing my hair out over CAP.
(Yeah people this is why I'm barely talking to anyone on MSN for the past few days :PP Lalala.)

(And my laptop has this really bad habit to shut down randomly .__________. omg I hope I won't need to send it for repairs ._.)

And I realise this world is so freaking talented it makes me wonder what have I done to deserve a place in it. ._.

Okay anyway, 2010.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:
To not screw up my life like I did in 2009.
I need to find some way for me to quit Facebook ._. Maybe get someone to change the password for me (who'll actually remember what the password is -.- okay maybe it'll be better if she can't remember it then I'll be barred from FB forever XD).
And now I need a way to quit (reading) LJ fanfics. Okay that may actually not be much of a problem.
Maybe I'll need a way to quit loving Super Junior. Maybe.

:P

Today's probably the last day when I can still call myself a 213er, I guess.
Okay true we'll always be 213ers forever, ever and ever, but... -.-
Life moves on, and so do we.

I'm going to miss everyone lots ._.
DETAILS OF CLASS LUNCH WILL BE SETTLED... AFTER WE GET OUR TIME TABLES ^^

I'm not going to be used to all the new changes. -sigh-

-goes off to attack CAP vigorously-

(I seriously need to edit my phone's music collection -.- having 380+ songs is just WRONG.)

(:

Everyone remember to SMILE~ especially when it's the new year ^^ (And Sungmin's birthday! XD)
(:

I love you, yeah that means everyone who's reading this sentence, and even those who AREN'T reading this sentence (: :D
(Don't ask me why am I suddenly in such a carebear-mood :P Esp when I have to go back to writing a psychopathic tale in like 5 minutes...)

:D

xoxos.

avatar.

2009-12-29T21:41:00.005+08:00

AVATAR IS A~~N AMAZING~~ ~~GOOD~~ GREAT MOVIE (:
(Read: nice but not perfect/wonderful.)
~~(2012 pwns it.)~~

This is a (failed) movie review brought to you by Li Xinzhuo, your unfriendly abnormal insane uh, reviewer! :D
(What am I saying. -.-)

Let me list out some non-serious things you should take note of.
1) If you don't understand half the English that was spoken at the beginning of the movie - well, fret not. Neither do I. Neither do DOM, and that's saying something.
2) If you happen to be bored by the first part of the movie and fall asleep (ahem like I did (when they were flying merrily -.-), please wake up soon because the exciting part is starting. ^^ Get popcorn or drinks or something that'll keep yourself awake if necessary. :D
3) A 3-hour long 3D movie makes people have headaches.
4) The male protagonist's name is... JAKE. And his deceased brother's name is TOM. And the Na'vi (I had to check Wiki for the proper name of the species -.- I've been thinking about them in terms of the big blue aliens for the entire time -.-) look like... wait, I said they're big and blue didn't I? BIG, BLUE ALIENS? RING ANY BELLS? *bells jingle in all Animorph fans' heads, others look on blankly* ANDALITES. Omg are you sure the scriptwriters didn't read Animorphs or something?
5) The metal they were trying to obtain is called... Unobtainium. Which according to Wiki means "a humorous name for any extremely rare, costly, or physically impossible material needed to fulfill a given design for a given application". -.- Lame much.
6) I think there's more but I can't remember what. :D
7) I LOVE THE GLOW-IN-DARK PLANTS! ^^ Esp the fluttering piaoish jellyfish-ish things.
8) The songs used are super nice ((: It's nice to hear... something without comprehensible lyrics and just listen to the music for the music alone for once. :P

Okay yeah.
Actually I didn't even know the Na'vis were aliens while watching the movie -.- I thought they were some native tribe that looks odd. -.- (Because I didn't understand they were saying during the intro whaaaaat. ._. So I didn't know they weren't on Earth! I was just amazed-ish by the floating doctors (okay which should have linked me to no gravity = travelling in space = going to another planet and all -.- but I'm slow.) :P)
(So yes my dear readers (?!), yeah, the movie Avatar is set on the moon (Pandora -omg subtle puns much, greed eh?-) an alien planet called Polyphemus. -nods- (So now we know where all those incomprehensible terms came from -.-) That's Obvious Fact -which LXZ doesn't get anyway- No. 234240394 for you. :D)

And I just discovered what the "I see you" thing mean. I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS SWEET. -.-
But it actually means something else.

●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (22:01):
did.. you hear the part where the other human guy was telling jake 'i see you' in their language meant like.. i see into your heart that sort of deep thing

-nods-
I conclude watching movies after laughing insanely at CCA = you'll be very tired and not concentrate well on the movie. :P

Okay now on to PHILOSOPHICAL PARTS.
(What, you thought I'll be able to watch a movie without cross-examining everything (when I'm not busy falling asleep)? XD)

And seriously I keep comparing everything to Animorphs. -.-

Okay I shall quote Dom and myself for a summary of what I feel about this movie: It's like a crossover between Pocahontas and Tarzan.
We aren't kidding.

Basically to me, the main issue to this movie is about - protecting the environment! -cues yaying-
It's about that issue, of humans over-exploiting land for selfish desires, blah blah blah. And how Mother Nature fights back and blah blah blah.
(And seriously, the part when all the creatures started attacking the human machinery weapons had me screaming "ANIMORPHS" in my brain XD)
But one thing that I found slightly... ironical: if the humans had never came to attack the place, Jake won't have met Neytiri. Then I dunno, if the humans do come one day, the Na'vi would have been in trouble and won't know how to defend themselves. ._.
But then if the humans didn't come to attack in the first place, they wouldn't have needed to defend themselves! Okay this doesn't make sense. Nvm.

Then yeah, the whole sense of acceptance thing.
I mean it's true, people who didn't grow up in a community might be "accepted", but will never be fully accepted. :P
I mean, it's just instinctive. In your subconscious you still think of that someone as an outsider. It's unavoidable, a part of human - or even alien, or just living things - nature I guess.
Ah well.

Okay I don't know what else I want to rant about ._.
Oh yeah one thing that irritated me about the movie is that WHY WAS IT SHOWING SO MUCH OF THE SCENERY IN FRONT?! I think that was why it was boring at first lah ._. I mean, okay yeah it's important to show that the planet is beautiful and it's worth protecting and what a sin it is to destroy it (and watching it through 3D is great but dizzifying... I read something in wiki about the strobing (read: level of jerkiness) and how it should have had more frames? Do I see producers attempting to cut down on price of production here?) but WE GET THE POINT, SO CAN WE MOVE ON ALREADY?! ._.
Oh wait or is it because Jake and Neytiri need to spend enough time together in order to fall in love? -.- Oh come on. (Plus uh who falls in love with someone just because he's brave?! ._. Okay I mean I knew they were probably going to end up together the moment Neytiri found Jake -.- but when they suddenly confessed for each other I was like, uh okay. -.- It's like, the process is not very clear ._. (Or maybe I was just falling asleep at that point of time. In which case there's something wrong with the movie. i.e. they spent too long gawking at the scenery. -.-)
Sigh. ._.

Oh I really like Trudy, as a sidenote.
She's like symbolizing the hope in this world, like there are still people with consciences no matter how cruel everyone else is being. That SOME people in the world are still sane, at least. (:
It's a turning point. XD

Oh yeah. I really want to comment about the Na'vis shooting at advanced human machinery with arrows and bows.
It's raw courage I guess.
I've said this before for 2012, and I'll say it again.
Humans never give up. I know the Na'vis aren't humans, technically speaking, but I believe in Avatar they were meant to be portrayed as humans.
They'll fight, no matter what.
I mean for a moment I wanted to laugh at them, because it's so obvious their arrows are no match for a TANK. Even with the combined power of multiple tribes, it's still puny, as compared to technology.
Then I saw the arrows scraping the glass panels.
It doesn't make much of a difference, but it still makes a difference. (Don't ask me what I'm saying. -.-)
Then I realised if I were there, I would be shooting arrows at them too. (It sort of reminds me of protesting against authority. which reminds me of something fangirly. XD)
And then in the end, it was the arrow. Neytiri's arrow, that brought the whole thing to an end.
Shouldn't underestimate things, eh? ^^ (Okay fine so even if Jake died the BIG PICTURE is still saved, the Na'vi will be safe, Pandora will be preserved. BUT WHAT, I WANT A HAPPY ENDING! :P ~~And after all his name is JAKE. I CAN'T SEE HIM DIE.~~ (Okay ignore me.) )

-I don't want to comment about the alikeness to Pocahontas of this movie because that'll just be history repeating itself (bad pun fully intended). :D XDD-

Actually I agree with what some of the reviewers said. The story is great in terms of its creation of this alternate universe with really cool technology and I like this Avatar idea, and yes this issue is going to be really important to humans one day, but... the presentation... is just... average. Like, the plot was really predictable-ish ._. Like you KNOW the good will win the bad, duh, and at the ending I practically knew that Jake would open his eyes in his alien body and the movie will end -_- Nevertheless the concepts are still great and it's not easy to think of. And predictable isn't necessarily bad... :P
Then again, I quote a reviewer (okay at least I'm paraphrasing what he said): the movie's technical aspects (uh I mean the technologies in the AU, not the 3D tech used to create the movie -.-) are more fascinating than the plot itself. ._.

Hey I mean, I still like the movie okay! It's just that, (I quote Lijia -.-) everyone tends to focus on the bad parts rather than the good. :P

I dunno, I think this is the end of my lousy "movie review" :P I don't like this as much as I like my 2012 reflection thing, but then again I like 2012 a lot more anyway XDD :P
(Plus I'm tired okay! :P)

So yay :D

And yay I've missed CIP for ANOTHER day. Means I seriously die die need to go do CIP tomorrow or I'll have 47 hours out of 50 which will be utter retardness.
AND MY CAP IS DEAD LAH I ONLY HAVE 1 PIECE WRITTEN WHICH IS ACTUALLY PRETTY UNUSABLE -.-
Okay I should go rant about it on SNS. XD

I'm broke.
8D
I think I probably gained like a lot of fats today. Yay. -.-
Lalalala.

I think our "class outings"
1) always consist only 4 people (out of which 3 will be me Dom Shihui ._.)
2) will always have us ending up sitting somewhere and playing Taptap on Shihui's iPhone and I'll always fail. :D
3) will always result in me going broke.
4) always occurs when PSLs/councillors have activities -.- = half the class gone le -.-

:DD

Okay I should go bathe and maybe write a bit of Fengzi (that's the state I'm going to end up in if I finish my CAP in time ._. ARGH BUT I REALLY WANT TO GET IN (but not like my writing is good enough but I want to try ._.) ._. -die le-) :D

Oh world wish us (NYJF) good luck. We have to put up an orientation performance in like, 6 days! And we haven't even started brainstorming yet and Vivian just got informed today.
And I'm involved.
And I still have like 6+ stories to write.
And I will have no time (because I'm still slacking. Although Playfish just blanked out on me again but that's not the point.) because we need to rehearse.
And I shall die.
(And this is called being too lazy to post on separate blogs so everything's lumped here. 8D)

And I got out of acting Qingxiao's role \O/ HAHAHAHAHA. 8D -embraces gates. which we'll need to ban to boarding school tomorrow and the paint's probably faded to grey already or something -.- :PP-
PEOPLE COME FOR NYJF PROD'10!!! :D (Yeah I've started advertising already.) I'LL BE APPEARING ON STAGE (other than for xiemu -.-) FOR ONCE! TREASURE THE OPPORTUNITY TO SEE ME ON STAGE OKAY :D -I'm eyeing the SM position for SYF'11 -ahem- XDD Or at least something backstage 8DD \o/ \O/-

Okay sorry this post is supposed to be about Avatar. -.- -I fail.-
(Okay to bring us back to Avatar, at first watching how Jake fails with interacting with the environment on Pandora was really amusing. XD)

OH I NEED TO GO FIND THE KYU VERSION OF MIDUHYO. I DIDN'T KNOW ONE EXISTS. ._.
(And Dom I'll be chasing you for links someday. :D)

And gah SMP... ._.
-jealous of people with topics-
Ah well WE WILL COME UP WITH SOMETHING. -does the tuzki determined hand action-
(Have I mentioned how Qingxiao has been pronouncing "tuzki" as "turskey" (like turkey like that) instead of "tooskey" (as in how you'll say tooth's key) -.- yeah 213ers this is your cue to faint.)

And suddenly the whole world has read The Quiet World. Wow. -.-

(:

xoxos.

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2009-12-28T20:37:00.003+08:00

PARK JUNGSOO LET ME JOING THE MILK CLUB ALREADY. I'M SERIOUS. BEFORE I'M SELF-DIAGNOISED AS CLINICALLY DEPRESSED.
(Yeah I know that doesn't actually make sense + can't actually happen. But since when have I made sense...?)

:P

xoxos.

categories.

2009-12-28T13:15:00.003+08:00

MUSIC SHALL JUST BE MUSIC.
-.-

WHO CARES ABOUT WHAT LABELS THERE ARE, WHO CARES.

Who cares if Evanescence is overly emo, if Avril Lavigne is overrated (not true, I can easily think of more overrated things -.- oh wait that's me being hypocritical.), if Korean pop is EXTREME overrated, etc etc.
IT'S JUST. MUSIC.
-.-

What, you're going to say that jazz is completely label-free and what, a cut above the rest? -.-
Give me a break.

Why on earth are we associating everything with a freaking category. -.-
I mean I can happily listen to Bob the Builder if it makes me happy. -.-

Irritated.

(Sorry this has been bothering me for a while. -.- Just that it especially got brought up... in my , uh, mind, just now. :D)

:D

xoxos.

silver.

2009-12-27T22:37:00.007+08:00

It doesn't feel real.

Nothing feels real anymore.

I'm thinking maybe I'll go to sleep on 31st December 2009 and wake up at 1st January 2009.

-shrug-

I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.

I'm counting on that for everything. ._.
I don't know.

I don't remember you.

IT DOESN'T FREAKING MATTER ANYMORE.

So?

So it'll all stop mattering some day.

Some day.

Like everything else that's stopped mattering.

~~Silver is never gold.~~

New Year Resolution:
Don't care anymore.

The end.

Since you've gone
I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night
I can only see your face
I look around but it's you, I can't replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying
Baby
Baby
Please.

New batch of songs to download: Rihanna.
:PP

/edit/
I feel sick.
.________.
Grah.

-dies-

/edit2/

Remembered some stuff.
Things that mattered so much to me in the past and I barely care about now.

Waiting for time to pass.

Changes to changes make everything acceptable again. (:

/edit/

I dunno.
I can't tell the difference anymore.

xoxos.

2009-12-27T00:47:00.002+08:00

看开了就什么都好了.

Problem is, I need some help with that.
No not that. THAT.
Yeah.

-this is how my blog gets spammed.-

Tropical climate countries are utterly deprived because there's never snow. -.-

Sigh.

xoxos.

2009-12-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

Scared.

xoxos.

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2009-12-26T14:59:00.003+08:00

The first half of 2009 was huge for Super Junior, but the latter half is not looking so great.

Oh, thanks so much allkpop.
-rolls eyes-

SLKGJAOSIERFJSDKL I NEED TO START WRITING. -dies-

bye.

/edit/

I hate myself. And my unconstructiveness. -.-

Park Jungsoo I wanna hug you.

Look at me in front of you
Me, who lives for you alone

HAPPINESS. IS. A. SADISTIC. SONG. -.-

xoxos.

tale.

2009-12-25T03:05:00.003+08:00

很久很久以前，
一个老人给了一个迷茫的孩子一粒种子，
他告诉那个孩子：
" 这个种子将会长出一朵很大很漂亮的花，
花中的每一朵小花都可你帮你实现一个愿望。
但是代价却是完成了你的心愿后，你也将消失 ! "
孩子拿著种子，
犹豫著要不要种下。
太阳升起来又落下，
孩子手中的种子被埋入了地下。
中间的第一朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和纯白色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是利特。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第二朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和鲜红色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是希澈。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第三朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和生褐色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是韩庚。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第四朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和米茶色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是艺声。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第五朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和橙黄色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是强仁。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第六朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和墨绿色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是神童。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第七朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和粉红色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是晟敏。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第八朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和乳白色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是银赫。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第九朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和海蓝色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是东海。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第十朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和灰绿色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是始源。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第十一朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和金黄色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是厉旭。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第十二朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和深紫色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是起范。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
中间的第十三朵花盛开了 ...
宝蓝色的花瓣和墨黑色的花蕊。
那朵花对孩子说：
" 你好，我是圭贤。谢谢你让我长大，
你有什麼心愿吗 ? 我会帮你完成 ! "
孩子微笑著摇了摇头 ...
最后一天，
这朵大花中的十三朵花一起盛开，
绽放著宝蓝色的光芒。
可是他们都不由得为这个孩子著急，
太阳就要落下，
可是这个孩子却还没有说出自己的愿望。
太阳公公终於要下山了，
夕阳的最后一丝光亮照向宝蓝色花朵上的一滴水 —
那个孩子最后的眼泪。
突然整朵花明亮的盖过了天上月亮，
因为所有的小花都听见了，
听见了孩子最后的愿望 —
" 我希望，我们大家永远在一起幸福的生活，永远都不分离 ... "
那个孩子感动了老人，
他并没有让孩子消失，
而是作为花的妖精永远守护著这朵花。
E. L. F. — 大家这样叫著那个孩子。
Ever Lasting Friends ...
我们永远在一起 ...
大家都传述著这样的真理：
这朵花有十四朵小花，
从利特开始，到 E. L. F. 结束 ...
而且只有，相守永远 ...

(;
(Nah, I didn't write this. :P Wish I did though.)

I've decided.
Or rather accepted something.
(:

I'll wait for you at the thirteenth month of the year, always.

<3

xoxos.

merry christmas(:

2009-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

(I get this feeling the picture is photoshopped, but, whatever. (: )

Merry Christmas everyone (:

-Santa, you know what I want.-
-piaos back to writing SMSF ^^ [uh that's a fanfic. I NEED TO START ON CAP OMG -dies-]-
(:

xoxos.

web.

2009-12-24T15:19:00.003+08:00

I want to believe, want to believe that the world is believable, want to believe that the world is still mainly good, want to.

But I don't dare to.

I think I'm born to be sarcastic. 8D
Oh yeah.

/edit/

OMG first day of school schedule.
._.
(Yeah I started looking down the column at "sec 2" before I caught myself -.-)
(At this rate I'll be walking into the 213 classroom on the first day of school next year.)
(OMG I MISS THE BEFORE-ASSEMBLY-213-RANDOMING SESSIONS. .______.)
(Omg I miss everyone. -sigh-)

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT I'M GOING TO BE A SEC3?!
A Sec3 with no more slack lessons (unless you count SIL... :P), a Sec3 starting in a new class with new people (._. I'm feeling apprehensive about my new classmates even though I know most of them are nice people... but uh I don't exactly get along with everyone/anyone as long as she's nice -.-), a Sec3 with ANOTHER batch of juniors (o.O yeah I'm still not used to having juniors -.-), a freaking Sec3 who's going to be studying subjects that I myself picked out...

2009 still seems as if it's been a dream, and you're telling me it's going to be 2010 already.

GAH I WANT TO BE IN 313 WITH ALL THE NON-SMTP-NON-HP 213er + 212ers .________.
-sigh-

Resisting change. ._.

Okay maybe by the end of Sec4 I'll be loving 410 as much as I love 213. ._.
MAYBE. That's a very big "maybe" there.
.____________.

I dunno, I want to go back to the start of 2009.
Yeah Santa, that's what I want for Christmas. :D

Sigh.

xoxos.

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2009-12-24T00:35:00.002+08:00

我要回到2005年了，有人让我带话给你们家IDOL

我要回到2005年11月06日了
有人要我带话给你们家爱豆吗
哪家爱豆都可以出道没出道都可以
没话要带的就祝我一路顺风吧

节选各楼回复：

你告诉他们
赶快出道吧
会有一大批人爱他们的

跟他们讲注意安全
开车小心
多休息，别累着了，会有很多关心他们的人。

跟我家孩子们说
说话注意点
开车小心点
还有那些什么法律啊让公司搞清楚了弄明白了再出道。。

..带给工作人员吧..
让他们整一个漂亮点的面具..谢谢..
涂漆多麻烦还是一次性的

告诉他们，虽然你们现在在霓虹很艰难，但是要坚持，你们会有熬出头的那一天。。。。。

叫他们在07年4月19日不要坐车
希澈也不要在06年8月坐车
叫他们09年9月多点陪一下强仁,最好留他在家

告诉韩庚，
从2005年11月19日开始，他的路会很坎坷，
告诉他，不要那么委屈自己，
累了要休息，疼了要哭出来
受伤了，就不要去跳那个跺脚舞，
多爱自己一点，才会让爱他的人多安心一点~
谢谢楼主了~

告诉05年的小海多多注意爸爸的身体
告诉希澈06年8月10日注意安全多带俩司机

告诉他们13个
好好当个小正常人
别出来当明星了
过自己的生活
该当学生的好好当学生
是时候就交个女朋友
结婚生子....健健康康
并且一定要快乐

告诉某人，骨折了会疼的，要去医院！！
告诉某某人，06年8月10日在家休息吧。。
告诉某某某，要多和爸爸在一起。。
告诉某某，要多休息，腰疼很难受的。。
告诉某某，09年9月在家安分的不要出去。。。少喝酒。。。><
告诉某四个人，一起出门一定要多多注意，小心安全！！！

楼主能不能告诉2005年的我
11月6号有个叫SUPER JUNIOR的你深爱的组合要出道了
这样我就可以早点爱上你们了

告诉他们
会有很多人爱他们让他们放心的出道
跟他们说也许以后会发生一些不愉快的事但是一定要坚强
告诉他们珍惜彼此
告诉他们,有很多人等着他们.
还有告诉他们如果决定了就要坚持.爱他们的人都会支持他们的.

告诉他们，要注意身体
告诉他们，要等着还有一位亲人的加入
告诉他们，要遵守交通规则
告诉他们，要多陪陪父母家人
告诉他们，要少喝酒
告诉他们，要出13人的专辑，要开13人的演唱会
最重要的，要告诉他们，他们组合的名字叫ELF，fan的名字要叫做super junior

告诉他们：你们会有一群陪伴你们到最后一天的朋友，纵使她们可能没有机会，亲眼看全你们，但是你们会刻在她们心里，即使痛，想必，依然会再来一次。
告诉他们：那个后来会加入的孩子，他有些别扭，他不爱表现出被感动或很感激的情绪，甚至连喜欢和爱，都不愿意表露在外面，所以啊，是个别扭的孩子，他其实是单纯的，他会因为最年幼而思想不成熟，尽管你们都会嘲笑他太腹黑太狡猾，但是他很幼稚，他会把你们当做亲哥哥一般，所以请跟他好好相处。记着叫他不要老说大云哥不好，大云哥表面上不在意，其实听的时候会生气的哦，不过最后他依然会原谅他。如果可能，多防范车行问题。
告诉他们：多多的给基范说话，说到他烦掉也要继续跟他说话。
告诉他们：珍惜跟爸爸妈妈爷爷奶奶在一起的时间，不要装作不耐烦。
告诉他们：任何时候都不要沮丧。
告诉他们：不要相信网上吵吵闹闹的一切纷争，真心爱的人，是不会舍得以你们为引来不计后果发泄不满的，所以不要担心那些吵架的人。
告诉他们：你们会有一群眼泪做成的团饭，但是奇怪的是她们会很坚强而且执着，一直都要坚持到最后一刻为止，坚持到他们都不要她们了为止。她们经常叫着“大哥二哥三哥……”，她们会因为害怕你们中的某些看不见她们而把心低到尘埃角落里，但她们会看着你们，默默用双手支撑你们，走到最后。
告诉他们：如果到了最后，他们聚了而散了的那天到了，能不能笑着跟我们说再见。如果可以，能不能说，我们会把ELF这个名字记在心里。
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最后，请楼主带话给我的本命：如果真有09年的那样的一天，你要一夜长大，不要再任性得像个孩子，还有，你会有我们在，不要让自己受伤。你说过不死不放弃，你既然相信奇迹，那么，你就要知道，你是上帝给我们的礼物，你不会孤单。如果真有那么一天，成熟起来，不要任性的事了，如果依然做了，那么请记住至少有一个人会理解他，知道他只是因为往日如此的放心和信任，得知之后一时的难以理解罢了，然而我知道他会立刻明白过来，请让他不要害怕，不要怀疑，释然地把人生的路走下去。

叫SM里的孩子,能不做艺人就不要做艺人,
如果非做不可,那也不要太投入感情,过过瘾就撤...
还有,天下无不散的宴席...
跳错舞步,顶不上去高音没关系,重要的是要有好身体
在说句讨打的话,俊英啊,和你韩庚哥一起出道吧...

麻烦你告诉金丽旭
可不可以请他不要来中国
省得离开的时候我揪心难过

告诉他好好珍惜和爸爸一起的日子。
告诉那个小小少年，会有很多人爱他宠他，请他一直霸道任性快乐下去。
告诉他无论以后发生什么事情，我们都会很爱他。
告诉他我们会一直在。
呃还有就是....记得无论何时发型都要漂漂亮亮的... = =

可以带我一起去么
貌似不行
那...就告诉他近几年的彩票号码
让他们买彩票
有钱了就不用受苦了

告诉小兔子，2009年12月12号他会被天外飞橘KISS到，记得带锅盔上场~~~
告诉金起范，2008年11月22日，有人在8区等着他望过来，不要只走向另一边~~~

麻烦楼告诉他他高兴了就出来唱歌不高兴了就回家打星际
告诉他07年4月19号不要坐车

叫某人不要因为朋友比他先出道而一个人躲在家里哭了
他马上就会有一帮兄弟宠他惯着他
叫那4个孩子好好的，换个安稳的师傅。
就算坐车也要保护好自己
叫某人多陪陪爸爸
叫某人不要那么急着回首尔，多陪陪那个弟弟
那天别急着走
叫某人能和哥哥们在一起的时候就多呆在一起
以后要当演员的人
在此以前多多和哥哥们联系感情吧
表害羞了
叫某人少喝酒少开车
告诉他无论怎么样
我们都在背后不离不弃

告诉庚要小心身体，疼不要忍着，说不定是骨折
告诉澈06年8月10号那天不要急着赶回去，迟到也没关系
告诉特、童、赫、贤07年4月19号那天不要出门，千万不要出门
告诉SJ的其他人09年的9月多陪强仁在家里喝酒，别出门喝酒了
告诉每一个人要多注意身体，我很心疼
其实最重要的是告诉他们，换个公司吧，虐死我了。。。

告诉他们08年会金融危机赚的韩元都换成RMB最保险
然后多买点黄金有钱就到中国来买房买股票然后07年底抛掉

李小孩多陪陪你爸爸多带他去医院做定期检查
金希希少喝酒开车要小心别总急着赶通告买车要买保险系数高的前面钢板厚的
特叔叔别去惹金妍儿好好保重身体
大茄子别喝酒了少泡吧晚上回宿舍去多待待喝了酒就别开车
小赫在什么都别担心你以后会越来越帅的

告诉他们有事的时候不要上网不要听乱七八糟的消息。
相信自己。
照顾好自己。不要弄得一身病。
早点找个女朋友。大龄男青年要解决终身大事。
好好吃饭。

某人在09年12月21日不要更新CY
还有不要出道在家当一个平凡的人
至少不会被别人伤害啊

2005年的时候，请告诉那12名在练习室里不分昼夜联系的孩子，

请放心出道吧，你们的身后会有一群最坚强的孩子守护着你们。

难过的时候要哭，受伤的时候要休息。

不要被SM骗了，不要签那么长的专属合约。

最好，换个公司吧。

12个人，等到第13名再出道，

那个时候也不迟。

换个有良心的公司吧。

会让你们好好休息，好好工作的公司。

会让你们13名在一起，出专辑，开演唱会，赶通告的公司。

不是那个演唱会开完就发专辑，专辑宣传期很短，可是一结束就要接着开演唱会的公司。

还有，晚上少出门，要找技术好的司机。

有什么事就说出来吧，不要闷在心里。

不要喝闷酒。

如果，做不到这些的话，就不要出道了。

好好收拾一下，回家吧。

就做一个最简单的孩子。

留在父母身边，好好学习，好好交个女朋友，好好结婚，好好生活。

好好地幸福...

我想..

告诉朴正洙.不要进sm.不要叫利特.不要哭.因为你哭起来真的很难看.要永远最朴正洙的大笑..>_<

告诉金希澈.继续当个每天重复工作的小工人.娶个善良的女人陪你走一生.相信你的宝宝会是最漂亮的..虽然我看不到...

告诉韩庚.你一定可以考上大学.一定可以当个最优秀的老师..四千块一个月挺好的..也可以算是小康了...呵呵...

告诉金钟云.他可以不要那么勉强自己..他还有更大舞台..就算不进sm你还有更大的选择相信自己的声音相信自己..

告诉金英云.不要那么冲动..开车小心..不要一开就开到sm去.否则你得为减肥大伤脑筋...

告诉申东熙..胃口大开是好事..可要注意自己的饮食健康...其实便宜的五花肉真的不好吃对吧...

告诉李晟敏.以后不会有一个别称叫兔子的人..更不会有个喜欢像哥哥弟弟撒娇却又不油腻的人..平凡人的生活其实更自在不是吗...

告诉李赫在.真的其实你很帅.不用老是跟增高鞋垫过不去..相信你自己可以走好你一辈子的人生...那个人生跟明星无关...

告诉李东海..不要那么单纯也不要倔强...跟爸爸多喝喝酒谈谈心..真心拥抱一次爸爸.那样就不会有遗憾.

告诉崔始源.不要为了符合别人而改变自己..坚持走自己的路..不进sm你也会是神最疼的孩子..因为你懂得怎样为别人付出...

告诉金丽旭.不要不好意思面对真实的自己..害羞可以..但自信也要..想要唱歌就当个音乐老师吧.你的钢琴你的作曲都是最棒的.不会有人怀疑...

告诉金基范.继续做着最简单的华侨.永远挺着属于你自己的胸膛走下去.那个"杀人微笑"会跟着你的消失而消失..但还是希望你别勉强自己.所以还是别回韩国了.特别是某公司.

告诉曺圭贤.那么喜欢游戏你就继续蹲在游戏里别出来..偶尔一边唱歌一边游戏也挺快哉..永远不要坐上那辆车.那我就永远都看不到你跟死神擦肩而过的镜头...

告诉05年的自己..
别看某人的照片而讨厌某人..也许那就是你多年之后最爱的某只...
所以大方一点的跟自己说...人是需要相处的..所以宽容一点...
告诉2010年的自己...
十三还是十三..会是最完美十三...
我们.还没有走到尽头...
so..加油...

I just want to say.......
I need to send UFOs. Leave comments on Cyworlds. Or Suju's official websites.
Or something.

BECAUSE YOU GUYS AREN'T ALONE.

(Wait what I'm saying has no relevance to the going-back-to-2005 thing =.= Okay whatever.)

Okay I've once thought that if anyone in Suju leaves I will stop loving them immediately...
But then I realised I CAN'T do that.
如果他们只剩下我们了...
I can't. I won't leave them.
XP

Oh, I'm merely a blind anxious fool. (:

xoxos.

rough.

2009-12-23T23:00:00.006+08:00

Life isn't easy for anyone.

Go deal with it, why don't you.

The world needs more innocence.

/edit/
I'm really... amazed? scared? by everything I've forgotten.
I DON'T WANT TO FORGET 213'09. OH MY GOSH.
Sigh.

nononono. please no.

At least I'll be seeing Yuhan (and probably Limjia and Zouyan and Gaoge = every 213 French-er (who all happen to not be in the same class as me next year =.=) ) next year in French.
Sigh. The little ways that we manage to keep in touch, huh? (:

CLASS LUNCH. CLASS LUNCH. CLASS LUNCH. ^^

xoxos.

dreams.

2009-12-23T10:18:00.002+08:00

Oh my freaking gosh even my dreams... are telling me... that I need to do something.

.______________.
Orz.

FINE. FINE. FINE.
I WILL DO IT OKAY.

.___________.

xoxos.

bling.

2009-12-23T00:59:00.004+08:00

~~You know you're pathetic when you're comforted by your own words.~~
I keep telling myself, I need to be strong.
Strong enough to protect other people. Protect Kyuhyun and Jungsoo and Heechul and Hangeng and Donghae and Hyukjae and Jongwoon and Kibum and Yongwoon and Siwon and Ryeowook and Donghee (... just realised how similar that sounds to Donghae... XD (: ) and Sungmin and... ELFs.
And other people too. People in real life whom I wish I can protect but can't.

Sigh.

I think my mind is going bonkers on me. Yay. Like my mind is jumping around and jumping beyond the thoughts that normal people think (?! yeah like this sentence).
._______. Maybe I'm on my way to becoming 4-dimensional too 8D

Or maybe I'm just going to become some crazy psychopathic person 8D
(If I do end up like that at least let me be like Sylvia Plath. :P I want to be able to write well... :P)

Sigh.

Creativity and insanity.
How do you tell the difference?

xoxos.

.

2009-12-22T16:11:00.003+08:00

Are you happy?

OMG SUPER JUNIOR THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT THAT I'M STILL HERE NOW (and going to be once again late for CIP).

I understand.
Yes I do.

Park Jungsoo Kim Heechul Hangeng Cho Kyuhyun STAY STRONG. (:

Because we will. We will always be strong, we will be your strength.
Please.

Lee Hyukjae Lee Donghae, stay strong too.

Kim Yongwoon Kim Kibum, stay strong.

Kim Jongwoon Shin Donghee Lee Sungmin Choi Siwon Kim Ryeowook stay strong.

ELFS, STAY STRONG.

My breath is shaking, my heart is shaking, but I'm staying strong.

oh my.
oh, oh, only for you.

I love you.

(And I need to chiong off for CIP now so...)

Miduhyo.

xoxos.

(And uh this has no relevance to this post whatsoever but I'm really sorry Jasmine ._. ._. ._.)

insomnia.

2009-12-22T02:05:00.002+08:00

I've got this list of songs to describe how I feel now.

:P

1) Miduhyo
2) Believe
3) It's You
4) Seven Years of Love
5) One Love
6) 背叛 (Hangeng version)
7) 愚人码头 (Hangeng version)
8) 我们的爱 (Ryeowook version)
9) 童话 (SJM version)
10) Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Natte Shimattandarou
11) 到了明天
12) Marry You

Got a new playlist up, only contains a few of the songs that I mentioned above though. (:

Believing until there's nothing left to believe in.

MIDUHYO.

xoxos.

again.

2009-12-22T00:48:00.006+08:00

Okay now I'm angry.

1) Allkpop is rubbish.
2) China news (and honestly, sina? that isn't even that reliable) is rubbish too.
3) YOU THINK YOU CAN JUDGE CHO KYUHYUN?!

Elaborations on #3.

Oh please. Do you even KNOW him?
SINCE WHEN DOES CHO KYUHYUN MEAN THINGS AT THE CONTEXTUAL LEVEL?!
Please don't insult his IQ, tyvm.

And do you think his tears were FAKE in EHB?!
Of. Course. The. Group. Matters. To. Him.
I believe he won't pick SME over his group members. I believe he won't even pick singing over his group members.
I believe so, and Cho Kyuhyun you'd better not let me down.
Or you're out of my life for good.
I'm serious.

And honestly speaking what he posted seemed more to be of the inter-Suju relationship.
I personally think what he meant was that, Super Junior won't do things to harm one another among themselves.

Now I'm not going to pretend as if I know him all that well and everything, but... oh gosh what's the point of bashing him.
I mean if you're an ELF and you bash Kyuhyun YOU're breaking up the group yourself. -.-
So don't be a hypocrite.

Stop jumping to conclusions people.

Gosh. -.-

I BELIEVE THEM.
BELIEVE ALL 13 OF THEM.
I BELIEVE THEY PUT THE GROUP ABOVE EVERYTHING ELSE.
... if they don't, there's no point in me loving them anymore.

:P

That being said...
I don't know.

Miduhyo.

/edit/

Cho Kyuhyun's CY BGM update: Believe/Super Junior

If he says believe, if anyone in Super Junior tells me to believe, I will.

Kim Heechul's CY background changed to solid black.
BGM: ... I'm not sure of the title, think it's Secret Garden?

Lyrics
Now let the day
Just slip away
So the dark night
May watch over you
Nocturne

Though darkness lay
It will give way
When the dark night
Delivers the day

Kim Heechul, are you telling us, there's hope beyond the night?

If he tell us to hope, we will hope.

^^

On a more... light-hearted? note, the coincidence of it all freaks me out, in a way.
In July Leeteuk updated his CY with the numbers 1221. Soon he deleted the post.
1221. 21 december.
In 2012 21 december is supposed to be the day when the world ends.
OMG.
:P :P :P
Freaked out.

2005到2012刚好七年。如果2012是世界末日那我们对他们的爱到世界末日那天才会停止。不管未来如何起码此刻我们在一起。Suju&elf.forever.

omg I'm getting goosebumps. :P

for me, it's only you.

oh whatever whatever anyone says, I'll only look at you.

miduhyo.

xoxos.

BELIEVE.

2009-12-21T22:40:00.004+08:00

I won't pretend I've been this cool from the start.
Won't pretend I wasn't upset.
Won't pretend I wasn't accusing him.
But I've cooled down.
I think.

I know I'm childish. SO KILL ME. WHATEVER.

Point is, it's different now. (:

And seriously since when has China news been reliable =.=

Waiting for the final say, no matter what.

But seriously, this is what I have to say about this entire situation.
NO MATTER WHAT.

Miduhyo.
I believe.
我相信.
Je crois.

韩庚是靠的住谱的人.
我知道.
我相信.

Believing, believing beyond the point of believe, believing to the point of no return.
Because I don't want to return.

"我已不能回头."
That's true, you know.

(:

Sarangheyo Super Junior.

MIDUHYO.

Cassiopeia's done it.
ELF is going to do it too.

<3>

/edit/

Wait.

Thought of one thing.

I have my 底线. My borderline.

The line lies at, the intact-ness of Super Junior.

ONLY 13 FOREVER 13.
No matter what.

It'll be that way for everyone. Even Park Jungsoo. Even Cho Kyuhyun. Even Lee Donghae.
Heck even Lee Hyukjae.

This, is all I want.
(Except for the fact that I want Kim Yongwoon and Kim Kibum to really, be physically there, and not just some photoshopped on version.)
(But you get what I mean, right?)

Is that too much I'm asking for?

xoxos.

Orz Orz Orz Orz.

2009-12-20T13:58:00.007+08:00

This... 贴... had me... spraying blood... at the computer screen... XD
(ELF/Cassies please continue reading. Non-ELFs/Cassies won't get what this post is about so nvm :PP)

Excerpts:

[Geography] 东海的西侧 = 东海的希澈- -

[Music] “在中亚细亚的草原上”

[Chinese] "啊，我思念那洞庭湖，我思念那长江，【我思念那东海】，"

我们家还有块广告牌：【金】日【在】手【中】.......

有天，一名俊秀的聪明如神童的小海（小孩）走在银河（银赫）上。马路在中间，东海在右边，炊事员跟在后边，有个叫强仁的孩子，利特大！（力特大.....）他说：艺声一世爱你，我的晟敏！说完后吃了鸡饭，洗车（希澈- -）去了。

我们学校有一摆地摊的，天天卖滑板，滑板（- -花瓣...）上写着：super-滑板！.........

Orz Or2 OTz OTZ OTL.
orz or2 oTz oTZ oTL.
(Sorry I've always wanted to type that. XD)

^^

Okay yay people we've successfully made Xuedi broke (in China -.-) 8DD
~~Ahem I claim most of the credit ahem.~~ :PP
Lalalalala my No.1015 calendar omg~ ^^
-true spirit of splurge-r-ism 8D-

/edit/
I realise on the day I demanded for 深蓝 updates zuishidonghai really updated O_____O
Orz to myself. XD

Love this parody, love the ending. (:
The trio exists within 13 (: ^^

xoxos.

dry.

2009-12-19T19:17:00.003+08:00

So?
What did you expect anyway?

I'm too lazy to talk to anyone now~~adays~~.

^^

No, I don't actually think that I need a familiy after all.

xoxos.

blogurl change~

2009-12-19T15:54:00.003+08:00

SING-ALONE-SONG@BS IS NOW OFFICIALLY MOVED TO sunn-ynightsky.blogspot.com/

:D

Please look forward to more randomings there :D

lovelove(:
-and playlist, I demand you to loaaaaaaaad.-

xoxos.

honestly.

2009-12-18T22:51:00.005+08:00

Frankly speaking, I'm just a childish person trying to pretend to be mature.

Then again, kids all love to play make belief, don't they.

:P

Ah well.

I DESPO-LY NEED THE SCHOOL YEAR TO RESTART SO THAT I CAN RESTART TOO.
-bangs head on wall-
~~Excuses.~~
Since you're going to let go anyway, why not now.

So I'm going to test myself.

Li Xinzhuo don't disappoint me again. Please.

Sigh.

Let's get back to the basics, shall we?
(:

xoxos.

.

2009-12-18T21:09:00.009+08:00

If I can't love you forever, I'll be... your friend forever.

I'll always remember the 13 faces that can always make me smile.

(:

on and on, precious love.

Ever Lasting Friends.

比起恋人我更想做的是你的朋友。

Idk maybe I've sank too deep, too far gone. :P
-shrug-

Taking things too far eh?
-shrug-
-shrug-
-shrug-

I don't know.

I'm so sorry but I love you.

Sorry sorry sorry sorry 是我是我是我是我最先被你被你被你被你迷惑迷惑迷惑迷惑 baby.

I can't even escape it now.

I'm going crazy crazy baby.

Asleep or awake, the only truth I can see, is you.
I'm stupid stupid stupid.

You're really like a fantasy.

All of your thoughts or sadness, I would like to keep.

(:

I've got 13 14 13 and a half reasons to smile.

:D

/edit/
In need to stop caring about what other people think.

(Purely innocent comment: Midoyo is going to overtake Doushite and become my favourite DBSK song. -which actually isn't saying much considering how I only have like 7 DBSK songs in my phone... -.- -)

I need to stop piaoing around baidu -.-
:D

xoxos.

.

2009-12-18T14:01:00.006+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG THE EUNHAE SHIPPER IN ME DIES DIES DIES DIES DIES. (Of the JOY. OH THE JOY THE JOY THE JOY. -uh the JOY here does not refer to 132 XDD yay no one shall understand what I'm saying.-)

LEE HYUKJAE I LOVE YOU FOR REPLYING LEE DONGHAE'S MESSAGE OH MY FREAKING GOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSH.

I need to get home and high over this in 2H Palace omg.

Okay people who're O_Oing at this now, refer to below.
(Taken from 百度赫海wholEHeart吧)

OMG LEE HYUKHAE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
(And I think why Eunhyuk replied with "我的爱李赫宰" was because Donghae previously left a message on his (as in Eunhyuk)'s CY that said "Hello my love. (Your love Lee Donghae)" -uh yeah English version because I too lazy type chinese :D-
SO YES HE'S QUOTING HIM OMG~~ -dies of happiness-

Okay I shall stop squealing like an idiot (silently) and go home and squeal some more 8D
(Eunhae rap rap~)

:D

on and on, precious love~
^^ ^^ ^^

-sorry for spamming my own blog like some idiot but OMG~ :D-

xoxos.

warm.

2009-12-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

Sylvia Plath (or Esther Greenwood, whatever) might be crazy, but she's right about one thing.
Hot baths = the best way to cheer yourself up. And a good night's sleep. :P

I think my life is now officially filled with either fangirling or emoing. ~~8DD~~
-.- Oh, the no-life-ness of my life kills me. (... all (bad) puns not intended.)

Have I mentioned how I'm refusing to go memorize the script for Qingxiao's part in syf for auditions? :D (Because I'm refusing to audition actually. YOU. CAN'T. TAKE. ME. AWAY. FROM. MY. BACKSTAGE. AND. MY. PROPS. AND. MY. uh PMPs. AND. MY uh lousy MONEY-RECLAMATION FORMS. AND. MY. BLACK. PAINT. AND. MY. PLANS. OF. MAKING. THE. CHINESE. DRAMA. SIDE. OF. THE. DRAMA. STORE. UN.DEPRIVED. AGAIN.)
(Okay lah maybe I won't be daozhang next year and maybe I don't want to be and maybe I want to let someone else be it and maybe they won't want me to be it and maybe etc.)
(But still I LOVE DAOJU WITH MY HEART (even when it killed my mood + freetime + energy + uniform etc). :P)
~~(Especially when I can actually fit well into my black jeans again. :D)~~
Okay I shall stop ranting about CCA here when SL is like decomposing -.- :P

I shall either feel very honoured or freaked out that the staff at CCKPL seem to recognise me already.
EVEN (one of) THE CLEANER(s).
._________.
It's going to be quite freaky to have people smiling at you when you innocently slip in next year to borrow a book... :PPP
(I mean I was shocked enough when I discovered Ain still remembers me earlier on this year -.-)

Oh! I saw someone wearing a Super Junior Singapore Fanclub T-shirt in Lot 1 yesterday -.-
I started grinning insanely to myself. XD

Amused that the advent calendar thing in PS seems to be counting down to the end of the holidays instead of to Christmas for us.
So as more and more squares vanish instead of getting excited we just get... ._.

ARGH OH GOSH I NEED TO SERIOUSLY MAJORLY GET. WRITING. -bashes self up-

.____________.

Okay I shall piao off to read my newly replenished stock of Eunhae fanfics 8DD
(This has to be the most normal/crappy/average/comprehensible post I've ever posted in a long while -.-)

xoxos.

idle.

2009-12-17T16:17:00.002+08:00

Omfg WHAT AM I STILL DOING HERE o_O
(And why am I bothering to ask what I'm still doing here instead of moving out of the chair -.-)

Lee Hyukhae this is your fault. :D

I NEED TO UPDATE MY PHOTO COLLECTION~~~~~~ :D

It's sad that other people remember how you were in the past, better than yourself. -shrug-

No one said it's going to be easy. :PP

In fact no one said anything about it.

Oh screw.

I don't understand circle properties. :D

Argh argh MOOD FOR AKILLA~~
:P

I've basically wasted my life commenting / piaoing around 2H Palace/BLG/DYers. 8DD
Because I was deprived of Eunhae fics :PP
LALALA.

我们用168小时过一辈子吧.
^^ Love 如若往生~ (:
Argh I demand 深蓝 updates.

Okay I demand myself to GET MOVING NOW.

Shucks I'm seriously going to be late. Yay me.

Here's to another 4 hours of aimless piaoing around the library and getting CIP hours for it :D

xoxos.

tootness II.

2009-12-17T10:02:00.003+08:00

Shihui's analysis on the Sorry Sorry MV:

●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (9:58):
you know what that mv looks like
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (9:59):
it looks like the sort of korean drama where the poor people have to work and slave for this rich aristocrat [aka siwon]
[WAHAHA.. donghae and eunhyuk rapping is the funniest thing i ever seen]
/hikari.\ says (10:00):
... ?!
...
WHAAAT.
IT'S HOT OKAY.
:P
I don't care it's my beloved Eunhae rap ^^
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:00):
siwon just stands there and smirks to his reflection while putting on clothes
-.-
then he's like the only one smiling there like some rich aristocrat
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:01):
then all of them look so pained singing [constipated in sungmin's case]
/hikari.\ says (10:01):
......
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:01):
then heechul and ryeowook there working they're heads off on that table
/hikari.\ says (10:01):
okay I'm posting this on my blog :D
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:01):
HAHA
i'm honoured
xD
/hikari.\ says (10:01):
LOL -.- XD
okay continue with your analysis :D
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:02):
and shindong is like the butler for siwon
cuz he's there carefully putting chocolates on the table
and lighting candles
and carefully measuring the angle to put that needle from the gramophone down
[siwon smirks again]
ohoh
/hikari.\ says (10:02):
... -.- no actually the candle person is kangin
:P
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:03):
oh fine
2 butlers in the house then
and theres this part
/hikari.\ says (10:03):
=.=
-headdesk- okay.
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:03):
where heechul is closing the envelope
then throwing it on the table
and dying on his chair
then right after that siwon smirks
the sort of evil smirk
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:04):
thenthen
siwon goes to this high class party after finally putting on all his clothes
[ooh! the rap]
xDD
then
everyones drinking chardonnay or sth
then the people there are so rich
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:05):
that they popped open the bottle and spilt like half the contents on the floor
tsk tsk.. waste..
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:06):
then from the beginning you see siwon and ryeowook enjoying the wine in a cellar
[showing how rich siwon is having his own cellar]
and ryeowook is in charge of the cellar
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:07):
then uh..sungmin and eeteuk are in charge of.. making all the clocks in the house run right
;D
yesung and hankyung are in charge of what on earth is that..
looks like some high class pepper and salt shaker.. ._.
kay then~
they're in charge of meals
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:08):
then eunhyuk is in charge of bringing his master's pocket watch to him
and heechul's in charge of making coffee
;D
kyuhyun and shindong are in charge of music
and uh.. donghae is in charge of turning on the music
._.
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:09):
then you see the amount of beauty products siwon has on his dressing table
8D
then you see heechul working diligently
and eeteuk working until he's so tired he sleeps on the couch
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:10):
donghae has worked till he's gone crazy and dances in the park
eunhyuk too.. except he dances next to a telephone booth
._.
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:11):
eheh
kangin is completely mssing in this mv lorh!
except coming in to light candles
._.
ooh
/hikari.\ says (10:11):
.......
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:11):
theres also this shot of rows of beauty products
/hikari.\ says (10:11):
-I have got nothing to say-
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:11):
and then 4 expensive looking watches lying side by side
then say lol
;D
/hikari.\ says (10:11):
(no actually half of the headless shots are kangin)
..
/hikari.\ says (10:12):
...........
...........
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:12):
is my analysis enough?
;D
/hikari.\ says (10:13):
uh yeah. XD
oh wait.
I demand a part on the Eunhae rap.
XD
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:13):
._.
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:14):
uhmm
something about eunhyuk said
sounded like 'i realised, half the lies $&&$&^*$&@#$'
eheh
if you hear the rap
●̮̮•shihui●̮̮• says (10:15):
sounds like they're saying the smiling people are not smiling
and they're just pretending to smile
[on a side note i love the on & on precious love thing ;D]

-absolutely nothing to say-

XP

Okay uh, this is one way of looking at things... XDD
(And admittedly a better way than just going OMG TOO HOT. HOT. H-O-T. H.O.T. I CAN'T STAND IT. OMG -insert 11 names here- YOU GUYS ARE TOO HOT. -insert complaints about Kangin and Kibum here- etc etc. Which is what I've done. XD)

Lalala~

xoxos.

undefined.

2009-12-16T22:40:00.005+08:00

I

.
.
.

.

/edit/
Words are getting redundant.

I'm really sick of typing the words, "I don't know."
Because it sucks to admit that to yourself.

Omfg Li Xinzhuo stop binge-eating. I'm serious.

I don't know, somehow I can't be bothered anymore.

nonono.

What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

loser.

.

I've got this scene from 忌恋寂寞 stuck in my head.
"这是我能给你的, 最好的家."

On and on, precious love.

ONLY FOR YOU.

~~I don't wanna love you anymore. because I don't deserve to.~~

out of strength.

xxxx.

start.

2009-12-14T23:50:00.010+08:00

OPERATION SUPER GIRL PART 2~
Commerces to-morrow~~ ^^v

KH: -sceptical expression-

LL: WHAT! HAVE SOME FAITH IN ME.

RW: -sceptical expression-

LL: O_O Where did you come from?

RW: Don't you welcome me? -sad puppy eyes-

LL: ...... Kim Ryeowook I'd have thought you've became more MAN since Insomnia... Apparently I was wrong...

HC: -sceptical expression-

LL: ?!?!?!?!

EH: Did I hear someone say the words "Super" just now? WULI SUPER JUNIOR-OR~ Uh and I'm one of the subunits, Super Monkey Anchovy bling bling Jewel Guy Lee Hyukjae imnida~!

LL: Uh, supermonkeyanchovyblingblingjewelguy LEE HYUKJAE, WHAT WAS THAT FOR?!

EH: -shrug- Uh, encouragement?

KH: Oi, that's supposed to be my job!

LL: (barely audible) and a great job you've done too...

KH: I heard-

SM: KYU! THERE'RE LOTS OF BUBBLES! COME PLAY WITH US!

-Yesung nods encouragingly in background-

EH: BUBBLES? I LOVE BUBBLES!

-Ryeowook joins in too (except he's camera-shy so yeah, he wasn't in the picture. D: )-

KH: ...

LL: ...

-Heechul has gone to find Siwon and Hankyung a long long time ago. In case anyone's wondering where he went. -

KH: Oh, anyway, back to the topic of encouragement, HWAITING~

LL: -touched- Aw thanks Kyu.

KH: Glad to be of service. (;

LL: ... My dear you're spending too much time with Siwon. I mean, since when did you start saying "glad to be of service"?!

KH: Is that supposed to be a bad thing? (eyes clearly say, "I'll tell Siwon hyung if you say yes...")

LL: Uh, no, but don't you think we should all have, like, our own personality?

-the pair exits, deep in convo about some philosophical issue about personal identities and etc etc-

-Donghae appears-

DH: KYU! -notices there's no one left- (the bubble gang has piaoed off to somewhere else chasing bubbles...)

DH: Where's everyone? -sad-

-END OF MY NONSENSE :D-

Sorry just uh, too high over the pretty SSII fancam pics (I love their cameras man.) :P
Credits of all photos... Uh, please refer to logo :P
(And sidenote: I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE LAST LEE DONGHAE PICTURE.)

(Some of my favourites aren't even posted here yet lorh (because I couldn't find a way to squeeze them in ._.) ._. :P Ah well it's okay, it's for my -ahem- private viewing pleasures -ahem- ~~(of course I won't share pictures of Teuk being sprayed with water (and looking EXTREMELY seducive...) with -ahem- readers of my blog -ahem- :D)~~

And to end off I'm posting the banner that contained that extremely epic quote that I mentioned in my post yesterday :D

The best Suju, the best ELF and the best LOVE.
^^

xoxos.

.

2009-12-14T14:47:00.005+08:00

Watching this video again... After yesterday... Just...
Makes me feel guilty.

I'm sorry.
Sorry Teuk. Sorry Hyuk. Sorry that we I let you down.

/edit @ 11.02pm/

Rewatching this MV, rerealising / renoticing the absense of Kim Kibum... -.-
But I like what someone said.
You know in the last shot? Eunhyuk was sitting on the armrest on one side of Kyu, and the other side is reserved for Kibum.

他一直都在.

I believe in you.
♥

xoxos.

.

2009-12-14T00:31:00.005+08:00

I don't deserve it.

I wish that I can restart everything but nope, not so easy.

Oh gosh. Park Jungsoo tell me what to do.

/edit/
Oh my freaking gosh.
I love ELFs.
Seriously I love them to bits and pieces with all my heart.

I think Cho Kyuhyun rubs off, seriously.
死不了, 不放弃.

I don't deserve to call myself an ELF, seriously.
Park Jungsoo I don't deserve to love you.

There's time to learn and grow and change.
Okay then.

We've tried, I guess.
I know I've tried. Maybe it's not my best but I have tried.
I'm not guilt-free, but...
We've tried.
It's not good enough, but one day we will do it.

I know it's not helpful at all to think about "later"s, but...
That's what we have, isn't it.

xoxos.

bah.

2009-12-13T19:47:00.008+08:00

Bitter bitter bitter bitter bitter bitter.

I think all the coffee I've been drinking has gone straight to my brain.

OH WHAT.

Just freak out let it gooooooooooo.

I'm so sorry to everyone to whom I've once promised something but never kept my promise.
They probably all won't see this anyway (and I'll be severely freaked out if they end up seeing this...) but I just want to say it all the same.

But there's no turning back, you know? I can't just go back and act like nothing has happened. I can't just apologise and expect you guys to accept me again because it's. not. the. same.

~~And what about the promises I've made to myself? What about those?~~

Cliche as this sounds, seriously, everything changes too fast.
I want to stop things from changing, I want to put my arm out to hail the rushing flow of changes, but they just knock me over and down and oh, I don't know.

I don't know I don't know I don't know.
I want to put my hands over my eyes and pretend nothing is happening.
But my ears, are still wide open.

Hug ^^ (Not the DBSK song... I realised (after I thought of the title) that it's a song... Just like my other idea that I'm calling Twins before realising that's too a Suju song -.-)
Please, oh please don't let me screw it up.

I want to look into your eyes, have enough courage to stare right into your eyes for once, and cry and cry and never stop and maybe for once you won't push me away or look away and for once the world can disappear around us and we'll be alone and we'll always have each other. No matter what.
Don't ask me where did that above chunk of stuff come from. -shrug-

Maybe I want to go back to this time, 2 years ago.
Maybe.

I need to find some non-existent artistic talent in me and go make a "Warning: Fangirl on the loose" banner for myself. :P
Someone teach me how to photoshop things :D

~~Should I get a tagboard? :P~~

/edit/
I. Don't. Freaking. Believe. This.
MELON DOESN'T WORK ON MY COMPUTER WHAT THE HECK OMG.
-hides-
I want to hit people. Oh gah.

李东海举毛巾举上瘾了... Orz x 13 :P

13个人的组合,12个人的三辑,11个人的演唱会,满叔,你情何以堪...

Epicly classic. You've got to love banners.

/baby won't you play with fire./

xoxos.

.

2009-12-12T13:13:00.004+08:00

This video makes you (okay me at least) want to scream shout cry and swear to love Super Junior forever until the end of time.

So maybe that's what I'll do.

xoxos.

foe.

2009-12-12T00:29:00.005+08:00

Things that I need to do:

1) Stop talking crap. (For an example of crap, refer to previous post. XP)

2) Stop being some superficial person.

3) Stop being fickle.

4) Stop swearing words like "freak" and seriously stop using "hell". ._.

5) Stop slacking off and away and etc.

6) Stop developing a) split personalities b) bipolar disorders c) obsessive-compulsive disorders.

7) Stop drinking coffee. It's not good. Plus it doesn't help with anything.

8) Stop reiterating myself.

9) Stop obsessing over well. Stuff. :P

Oh yay greatness.

I don't care. Or trying not to anyway.
Problem is I don't know what am I caring about now.

It's not a jumble of thoughts.
Because there aren't thoughts.
And I find something wrong with that (of course there is.) and I try to put something in place to fill the blanks but I just get some weird concoction that's unidentifable.

I feel as if I'm being pushed from all directions.
Into something cold. And hard. That's not bulging.
I want to be knocked unconscious but I'm not. The impact is not great enough. But the constant force coming from all directions are suffocating me. Against that cold and hard thing.
Which actually isn't doing anything to suffocate me directly, actually.
It's just its pure existence that's the problem.

Feel like I'm a piece of litmus. Either blue or red. No intermediate.
From one extreme to another.

I've got images from the Seoul Song video stuck in my head.

I dunno, but it seems to be not working anymore.

Guess I need a new brand of anti-depressants. (not to be taken literally. duh.)
Too bad. I liked the old one a lot.

But it's gone.
Gone and not coming back.

I may chase after it, at top speed, running fast as I can.
But not fast enough.
Never fast enough.
Never good enough.

It's not going to change, and it has changed.

I'm not sure if this is how I want things to go any longer.

-rubs temples-

I don't even know what's my problem.

It's all just part of my imagination. Like everything else I guess.

/edit/
You don't have to measure up to anything.
(:

/edit 2/
Fickle + nonsensical + repetitive + fake + act of pretendence + extremes = my life.

xoxos.

meadow.

2009-12-10T14:06:00.009+08:00

I don't know anymore.

Dear, you're fighting a losing battle here.
(Uh. Can't remember that quote from PoA, you know what the mirror in the pub -._. I can't remember the name of the pub in Diagon Alley either -.- Okay it's seriously time for me to go start reading again :P- said to Harry... Yeah. :P Plus I mainly read it in Chinese so uh. :P)

Nostalgic for simple stupid little things.
Sigh.
Make that extremely so.

I feel entirely drained after that last post. Heh. :P

Oh, great man.

This post shall not make sense.

/edit/
O_______________________O
Park Jungsoo I demand to know what the hell are you talking about with your "December is a season to think about life and death".

Freak you Park Jungsoo. Stop reading my mind. ~~GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY.~~
You. Urgh. Urgh. Urgh. -whackbash-

sklfjwsoweiruwojxocvjsodiweiowusosdssxeroi.

I'm going utterly i-n-s-a-n-e.
I need retail therapy. Omo.

Who wants to go drill a hole in your earlobe with me? :D
(I finally asked my mom and she said yes (after asking me "very fashion meh" with that sceptical look XP I couldn't have very well told her, uh yeah because the man I love has 2 earholes in his left earlobe and I want the same. Because that isn't the full reason. Just about 50% of it. :P). Except I utterly don't dare to tell my grandmother -.- Oh the hurdles I need to overcome on my way to life with 3 earholes. XD)
(And my mom told me don't ever think about getting belly piercings ._. -I'll need to lose like 20kg before I dare to get one of those, partially because I'll need to reveal my belly at the piercing parlour alone and I won't want the person to get shocked to death by the size of it alone. XDD :P Not like I'll want one. So far. XD-)

Oh freak freak freak I need my supply of endorphins. -.- (Yeah so much about swearing less.)
Graaaaaaaah.

I officially can't identify the first singer in Sorry Sorry remix O_O I get this feeling it's Yesung but idk... :P
AND SERIOUSLY KIM RYEOWOOK YOU HAVE THE EASIEST-TO-IDENTIFY VOICE EVER ^^

I fangirl and everything's okay again. I sigh.
Oh lala.

/edit of edit/
Oh fickle fickle.
I sigh at myself.

(And I forgot to say, the reason why this post is titled Meadow is entirely because uh, I want to see something green. And soft. Which is a meadow. With blue skies overhead. And I can take my laptop there and... we'll see how life goes. :P)

Fresh air, oh fresh air.

/edit of edit of edit/
CIP was ._. I walked until my feet (still) feel dead to me -.-

I spent $70 already on stupid (necessary) stuff like Ezlink handphone (yes I can finally reply smses again. yay.) Harry Potter books (-ahem my darling friend Jasmin from primary school is seriously never going to return me my books so I've decided to blow $30 on them. Yay me. BUT DEATHLY HALLOWS MAKES IT WORTH IT. :P So yeah I've got it now. Yay.-). ._.
Oh gah I still need earphones. The only type that looks nice all cost $40 -.- -.- -.- Wow... (And I'm not even sure if they're compatible with my earphones but the Sony one should be very okay right... ._.) But after I buy them I'll be seriously severely moneyless and I still want to pierce my ears and TS outings (which will come someday...) and class outings (which will come someday too...) which all need mooooooney.
.__________.
Oh lalala.

Okay I haven't even came to the main reason as to why I wanted to edit this post.
GOLDEN DISK AWARDS.
EUNHYUK LEE HYUKJAE PABO DON'T CRY OH GAH. LEETEUK PARK JUNGSOO ULTIMATE PABO DON'T CRY AND YOU'RE SICK OH MAN WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH YOU.
Omg Lee Donghae. You just broke my heart there. ._______.
(Park Jungsoo and Lee Hyukjae were like salt to the wound... :P)
(And omg Cho Kyuhyun. -I seriously sigh.- I though you were supposed to be the strong one among my Top4 :P -okay granted you are, but uh, I seriously think you're spending too much time with Lee Donghae, the sensitiveness is starting to rub off... :P It's not a bad thing lah, just that my heart is even MORE prone to breaking now. YAY. -.-)
-okay I haven't watched the clip where they actually received the prize yet and I seriously don't want to know who else cried ._. :PP- Oh you guys. -hughug- (:
Omg I'm extreme, touched, and everything.
We said 2009 would be the year for Super Junior.
Oh gah MELON. I HATE KOREAN IDs. .___________.

Oh and I was watching Sorry Sorry remix live @ GDA and you know there's the KRY part in front... Then the rest of Suju were behind the white uh, veil-ish thing? And how the light was shone on them from behind so their silhouttes were casted on the "veil"?
Omg that image is omg.
And it made me think of this sentence, "You'll never be alone."
:PP

I. Love. The. Eunhae. Rap. To. Bits. And. Pieces. ^^
Lee Donghae go cut your hair. I'M SERIOUS. :P Fishes shouldn't have long hair. :D
Lee Hyukjae I love your wine-red streaks in your hair. Omg.

(Since we're on the topic of hair...)
Lee Sungmin your hair... looks... weird... fringe fringe fringe fringe...
CHO KYUHYUN YOU. NEED. A. FRINGE. I'm sorry but I'm against 狼奔头s (yeah when my own hairstyle is... uh... you'll probably prefer no-fringeness to the fringe I currently have. :P But I plan to shock my new class on the first day of school anyway. Which is not really good because I'm supposed to leave a good impression and - Okay I've gone majorly offtopic. Yay.) on everyone :P
And you two ah. No fringe also must no fringe together. I sigh at you XD

Park Jungsoo I want to hug you.
I've always wanted to, but extremely so tonight :PP XD
Oh wait. Hair. Aiyah yours is perfect lah. ^^
Kangin is... not here... So no Kangteuk couple comments... ARGH. ._____. Kangin Kim Yongwoon you eggplant (...) we're waiting for you. (: It's depressing to see Kyu singing the "accompanyment" to... the tape recording. -sigh-

CHOI SIWON. YOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUYOU. WHAT ON EARTH DO YOU MEAN TO DO TO US EH? NO SHIRT? ONLY BLAZER?! Make that an UNBUTTONED blazer?! What on earth are you trying to do eh just because Kibum is off filming movies? :P
Oh wait. Hair.
Okay it's finally no longer the O_Oish Super Girl hairstyle. I'm very glad about that. :D
Kim Kibum... you aren't here but anyway, your recent 女鬼 (okay fine so you're supposed to be a male ghost but anyway...) hair ah... YOU'D BETTER GO CUT IT :P I loved the Full House hair~~ Go cut it like that again~~~ XD And oh finish filming earlier you pabopabopabo I hate counting to only 12 (or now, 11 .____.) in pictures/videos D: D: D: .____.

Kim Heechul, please go get your haircut together with Lee Donghae, tyvm. I still don't like long wavy hair on anyone :P (Hey Kyu's Sorry Sorry hairstyle was short wavy hair okay :P -okay fine it's relatively long for him but honestly it's nothing beside Heechul's... XD)
Hangeng... No hairstyle change... :P (Okay lah even if it changed I can't tell :P Geng's hair's always about the same (: But the look never ever ever gets old on him (: :D)

Shindong ahahahahaha I still love your mushroom head. XDD

Yesung... I like your hairstyle the way it is/has been since Sorry Sorry :D :D ^^
Kim Ryeowook your fringe = love. :D
BUT KIM RYEOWOOK YOUR VOICE CONDITIONS. YOUR VOICE WAS ALMOST BREAKING TODAY. OMG GO DRINK WATER + HONEY AND WHATEVER YOU NEED TO DO OKAY. OMG SS2@nanjing IS 2 DAYS LATER AND PARK JUNGSOO ALREADY HAS A FLU OMG YOU'D BETTER TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.
.___________.
I swear one intensive week of SJM activities in Taiwan + GDA + SSII = killer. I HATE YOU SME.

Yup that's everyone. (: :D

AND OMG BEAT IT! XDD Omg Leeteuk omg omg omg.
OMG EUNHYUK OMGOMGOMG MOONWALK OMGOMGOMG.
-ahem I demand to know where's Donghae. :PPP Okay lah he wouldn't have had any time to rehearse... -glareSJMglareglareglare- I glare at SJM for breaking up my Eunhae. .______. Lalala.- ~~(I take back the glares as soon as I think of Kyuhae.)~~

Oh wow this post is seriously freaking long now :D Thanks to the many many edits :DD Yay~

I'M THE GIRLFRIEND OF THE 13 MOST WONDERFUL MEN EVER. ^^
I love you Park Jungsoo.

Gah I have this (quite nice, if I'll say so myself :P) idea for a fanfic (ahem Eunhae ahem) but I don't think I'm getting time to write it tonight :P (Wasted it all on fangirling \o/ :P) And I can't stay up too late, CIP tomorrow at 8 ._.
(And I never got to writing Beliefs. Oh gah.)
Lalala I'll do that later (literally... it's 0.25am now...). Serious. I need to finish up #49 in the Suju 100 challenge :P

Ahh tons of writing to do tomorrow. 8D

xoxos.

only 13.

2009-12-10T10:29:00.015+08:00

I'm getting irritated, honestly.
I guess I'm sort of asking for it, what with me piaoing around LJ communities. I KNOW that English-speaking fans, are mostly against Only 13, so called.
Which doesn't make much sense to me, honestly speaking. I mean you would have thought that Chinese ELFs would like Henry and Zhoumi more, for the pure reason that they speak the same language alone. Plus it's always easier to identify with someone who's from the same country as you. (Okay so Henry may not count but hey, he's still Chinese. Even if he grew up in Canada.)

But I'm seriously irritated by how they seem to treat us Only 13 fans (yeah it's us Only 13 fans. ^^v) as if we're something evil and vile and etc etc that's meant to be despised. Oh please.

We are not against Henry and Zhoumi as people. We're just against the idea of them joining Super Junior.

Actually it's all SM's fault, honestly speaking.
Why the subgroups, why. I don't like it at all.
I don't like any of the subgroups, actually. Not even SJH or SJT or even SJKRY.
It really seems that Super Junior is just a money making tool and all they mean to SM is... a way to gain the most revenue out of them.
4 subgroups makes more money than one group.

That's the plain and simple fact.

And maybe one day SM would decide, 13 artistes make more money than a group of thirteen too!

Okay not likely. By then they would have new, younger artistes, who would be able to make even more money for SM in the long run.

Actually I think it's sad. Stupid and sad.
We're fighting so hard for something that's just going to end anyway.

I don't know, but we're fighting anyway, because we need to for the people we love. It's an obligation. Even if we're fighting a losing battle, we aren't giving up.
For those little moments of happiness and joy and plain bliss, we would fight on. Even if they would end someday, we would still fight on.
Because there already isn't much left in this world, and if we remove love from it... I don't want to think about what would be left.

Okay I've gone stray from the original topic.
Only 13.
Yeah.

One thing I've never understood is, if they support Henry joining Super Junior (or at least being accepted as a part of Super Junior), then will they support any other new member that SM decides to throw into Super Junior too?
That completely doesn't make sense.
(Or if they don't want Henry to join Super Junior, but just want him to be acknowledged for what he's doing and etc, well we're actually not that different. It's just that we don't like Henry/Zhoumi. Or rather we're neutral about them. And they like them. But all of us also love another 13 members, and 13 is larger than 2.)

The point is, if SM sees that they could add 2 new members into a subgroup of Super Junior and the fans accept them, SM would think, they can get away with adding more people! It's free publicity, taking advantage of Super Junior's fame. It's easier to introduce artistes with another already-well-known group. More people would notice them.
So if SM thinks they can use Super Junior as a advertising tool for introducing new artistes, well, who knows, maybe they'll introduce a 5th subgroup of Super Junior with, say, 3 new non-Suju members! And what would the fans do then? Accept them?!
Then SM would start thinking, hey Super Junior has too many members. And since Leeteuk and Heechul are getting old now and they need to go for NS, let's remove them from the group!
And soon Super Junior would be just an empty shell. A name. Nothing else.

Is that what you want to happen?

You might say, uh, you're exaggerating. That won't happen.
Yeah and we all thought that DBSK would go on dominating the Korean music industry forever. Maybe SM also thought DBSK would go on earning money for them forever. We all thought that 2PM would forever have 7 members. We all still think that everything would go back to normal again.
(No offense to Cassies and 2PM fans. I didn't mean any disrespect or whatsoever. I'm too hoping everything would be alright for everyone again. But the point is, we don't know what's going to happen in future. And we all know that even if the lawsuit gets settled and if Jaebum comes back to 2PM, things won't ever be the same again. It's true and there's no arguing about that.)
And hey, we all thought that we can take both BSP scholarship AND MSTP at the same time too!
We all thought we could trust the authority.
Are we going to keep doing so, still?

Change is a really horrible thing.

We, as Only 13 fans, are trying to stop SM, before they start changing Super Junior however they like thinking they can get away with it and the fans won't complain and would foolishly accept everything.

Because we won't. We're going to keep fighting.

And yeah you're going to say, but now SM already released an announcement that Super Junior will forever only consist of 13 members, Leeteuk Heechul Hankyung Yesung Kangin Shindong Sungmin Eunhyuk Donghae Siwon Ryeowook Kibum Kyuhyun. So why are you guys still shouting Only13 during Don't Don performances?
Because if we don't do that, SM is going to think that we've forgotten about it and are starting to accept Henry as a part of Super Junior. That over time we've grown to like Henry or whatever.
We need to remind them it's not the case.
We'd much rather be shouting something else during the song to show our support. Trust me. Seriously.
But we can't. We aren't going to let SM walk all over us, walk all over the 13 boys that we love so much.

Then you might mention, but Super Junior members seem to accept them already! So why can't you, as their fans?
Of course they would accept them. They are all human. And they (by that I mean Super Junior AND Henry and Zhoumi) are all nice people and it's natural to get along well with each other. I mean I don't want them to be at each other's throats either.
I know Leeteuk Park Jungsoo pulled the 2 of them onto stage during Super Show II in Bangkok and asked ELFs to applaud them or something.
Well it's true, they've worked hard in SJM. We acknowledge them too.
I know Zhoumi took care of Heechul when he was recovering from his car accident, because Hankyung requested for him to help since he was busy.
We're touched by how they care for one another.
But even though we're touched, we still need to keep fighting.
Just to keep Super Junior together as a group.

We need to.

I'm not looking for arguments or debates with this post. But if you want to talk to me about this in a civilized way, well, okay, and I'll try my best to be as civilized and non-sardonic as I can get. :P
This post may not be speaking for EVERY Only13 fan. But I'm sure it speaks for most. Or at least those with semi-functioning brains... I hope. :P

I'm not forcing non-Only 13 fans to accept my opinion (because if they tried to turn me into non-Only 13... well, I would like to see them try. :D).
I just want them (okay whoever who reads my blog anyway) to understand how we feel as Only13 fans.
It's true we've done things that are hurtful to Henry and Zhoumi. And I know some of us did attack them personally. I'm really really sorry, but sometimes we get agitated, especially when it was first happening. We do things without thinking. And when we're desperate... we do desperate things. I hope you understand, and even if you don't... well, there's nothing I can do about it to make you understand -.- So in that case I guess I have nothing to say to you.
(So you probably shouldn't try to say anything to me either about this topic. :D)

But the point is, we're going to keep fighting. No matter what.
But we're fighting against SME. Not Henry and Zhoumi.
I'm thinking I should probably write letters to them. To explain. I don't know if they'll read them but I might anyway.
Because we're going to keep fighting unti SJM stops all activities, or Super Junior disbands. No actually we'll still fight beyond the point of time when Super Junior disbands. Except by then, the words Only13 would have a completely different meaning. (:

It's not going to be pretty, it's not going to be easy. It may not even be necessary.
But we want to do it. To us, it is necessary.

Oh btw if you don't care about Only13 just because you don't like everyone in Super Junior and won't care if some of them leaves and get replaced by Henry and Zhoumi, well, then this post has never been for you. :D And I would probably never talk to you about Super Junior :P :D
Because Only13 =/= Super Junior - Kim Yongwoon - Kim Kibum + Henry Lau + Zhoumi. It will never be so. No matter what. Whatever the cost.

You may say I'm taking the fangirling thing too far. -shrug- I think it's worth it. So yeah. :P And it's my life after all. (:

Super Junior Only 13 Forever 13.
♥

Super Junior has 14 members. Starts with Leeteuk, ends with ELF.

For that alone, I'll keep fighting.

xoxos.

rake.

2009-12-09T10:49:00.011+08:00

Oh my freaking gosh I'm developing OCD.
8D
Except I'm not even doing anything. -.-
Have you forgotten?

RAHRAHRAHRAH.

LI XINZHUO YOU HAVE NO TIME LEFT FOR SLACKING.

Hey I've got this idea to remodel my RC restaurant (before. you know. :D) to look like the one I described in the sldtt cafe scene. (Not that I described it much -.- but well, my mental picture of it. :D)

Lalala.

I bet this post would be edited later over some other issue that I stumble across and decide to bore everyone with again. Yay.

/edit/
OH MY FREAKING GOSH OMG OMG OMFG.
SUPER SHOW II CD!!!! (Yeah I know it's CD... Not DVD... BUT STILL.)
MY HONEY MY BEAUTIFUL MY INSOMNIA MY GEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
OH MY FREAKING GOSH I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT ITTTTTTTTT.
-save moneying-
It'd better be stocked in Singapore, or I'll start killing people. :DD

AND OMG MY SORRY SORRY REMIX OMG OMG OMG OMG.
THERE'S ONE PART THAT I DIDN'T KNOW EXISTED. OH MY GOSH. :O
AND EUNHYUK HAS ANOTHER RAP OMG. (With someone whom I can't tell who it is... Shindong? Donghae??? -Eunhae shipper surfaces- Someone else entirely? :O) (OMG IT'S REALLY EUNHAE. -diesdiesdiesdiesdies-)
And IT'S YOU. Argh my gosh.

Okay sorry this is what's probably going to happen when Suju's 4th album comes out. :D Except it'll be a million times worse. ^^
OMG I CAN'T WAIT ALREADY ._________. (When the album would probably be released in June or later -.- I mean they haven't even started recording -.-)
(But I can't wait to hear it already. :D)

(AND SERIOUSLY PEOPLE, GO READ SAS. ^^ There's good stuff there you know. XDD)

/edit of edit/
Changed skin. The to-do-list was starting to irritate me (which was the purpose anyway) but I'm scared that people didn't know I'm updating and thought my blog is dead -.-
So I shifted the list to the 3rd navigation (where there's supposed to be a tagboard XD) ^^v It'll still subconsciously irritate me (I think. Hope. But recently things that irritate me just tend to make me not do them -.- Oh freak.).
Too lazy to edit the profile, plus I just changed my skin not long ago so the profile is still relatively fresh, plus I like what I wrote so yeah, keeping it for now :D
Same goes for the music. (:
(Oh and my blog title actually makes sense lorh. I mean okay, sort of. But it's not just 2 nonsensical words that I plucked up there to look cool... :P)
(But uh, looking cool is important too. :PP OKAY SPARE ME I'M SUPERFICIAL LIKE THAT. Not that you didn't know it. Or did you? :P)

The SAS skin is starting to get on my nerves too because the posting space is so narrow and all my posts are infinitely lengthened -.- It's good for making short posts look long, but, when your posts are already long? -cough fanfiction cough- ._______.

I'm swearing an abnormally lot recently, with all the "freaks" that've recently been developed in the world and everything... XP Granted it's nothing as compared to some things that some people swear -ahem- but still, it's better to keep my language clean. :D Lalala.

And oh man today alone I must have posted at SAS for like 5 times. At least 4. With a dozen edits in between. ._.
Effects fanfictions (from LJ) have on you. :P

LALALA 100 SUJU FIC CHALLENGE~
I challenge you to read my first story without puking blood (okay that's virtually impossible. Whee~). 8D

Oh yeah I'm finally returning to my world of CIPing tomorrow. ^^

xoxos.

do.

2009-12-08T21:34:00.002+08:00

Okay I've been thinking (yeah I keep thinking these days... good or bad?).
About the stuff I'm posting nowadays -.-

I'm asking myself, am I trying to prove something?
Trying to make myself sound special, mature, and sure about how I feel?
Trying to make myself sound as if I'm all intelligent and smart?
Trying to make my blog different from the tons of other blogs that a 14 year old in Singapore would have?

Not really.
Not yet at least.

So far I'm just trying to talk about issues that I feel strongly about.
I'm thinking about getting a tagboard. I want to hear what other people think about these same issues (assuming they know of their existence... thanks to my overly long to do list :P).

Hmm.

But after all it's a fine line between being yourself and being someone you aren't, being sincere and showing off.
I'm scared of crossing that line, honestly.

I mean I've always like to create philosophies, so called.
Help me to find a way to deal with things in life, I suppose.

But I really don't want to be a showoff.
As much as I'd like to pretend otherwise, people's opinions of me matter to me. It's natural.

So uh, if one day I'm starting to be a 14-years-old trying to sound like a 40-years-old professor (and irritating the whole world by doing so), poke some sense back into me. Thanks. I'll need that.
(:

xoxos.

divide.

2009-12-08T14:46:00.007+08:00

Okay I'm officially sick of labels.

What I've been doing all these while, with this blog, is basically throwing the rest of this world into this giant container and paste a giant label on it that says "FAKE" in bright neon glowing letters.
And me myself isn't in that container.

Tell me what's not fake about that.

Oh my gosh I seriously think there's something wrong with me. ._______.

Artificial.
I should just give up and let the world take its course.
Things were good when they were still simple. But who asked me to realise they are complicated?

Self-delusion.
Hahahaha.
I've tried one form of it, so why not try another now?

I seriously understand why little kids have imaginary friends now -.-
Maybe that's happening to me 10 years late. :P
Not that impossible come to think about it.

OH GO AWAY.

/edit/
Okay I conclude, life is easy when you're a blind brainless airhead fangirl.
So I'll try to be that. -.- (Wait, isn't that what I've always been.)

/edit/
SME removed the previous video -.- Hoping they would leave this alone, but doesn't look like it. :P Oh well posting this one for now.)

Seoul Song/Super Junior ft. SNSD

Omg the video is ♥. You completely want to hug everyone in the video (yeah including the SNSD girls :P) ESPECIALLY CHO KYUHYUN IN HIS BLACK SWEATER♥ (And the flashing-past Eunhyuk is ♥ too. ^^ Yesung = ultimate spasness (in the 2 seconds that he appeared for but anyway...) And ohmg Donghae~ Shindong's dance is ♥ and the little kids are SUPER CUTE XDD Leeteuk is ♥♥♥ (as always ^^) Siwon looked so cute when he was running... Ryeowook is ♥ Basically I love the whole video~)
-ends additional fangirling here, end of edit ^^-
AND GAH KYU I'M JEALOUS :P Okay honestly speaking Jessica is pretty. I sort of like (or maybe just am okay with) Taeyeon and Seohyun.

I officially declare I'm not going to hate SNSD anymore :D
Respect each artiste for their work. It's not easy for anyone... (:

Well I was thinking.
When you like Korean stars one thing you keep wondering is, did they go through plastic surgery? (Yeah Korea is too well-known for its connotations to plastic surgery. -shrug-)
Honestly speaking, it doesn't matter. Not to me.
They don't really have a choice.
You know my FPS scenario story from last year? (Okay you probably don't. Nvm.) It was about a girl who wanted to be a famous singer but she couldn't become one unless she agreed to undergo plastic surgery. Which actually isn't that futuristic after all, seeing how it already seems to be the case in Korea.

One thing about plastic surgery is, people understand it if others need it for medical reasons, like after car accidents.
But when it's by choice or something, they seem to despise it and treat it as something vile and evil and etc.
That's what I thought too, last year. I mean yeah I still treasure natural beauty. Beauty in things as they are. No changes. No articifiality. (That was before I realised everything is artificial to an extent...)

But actually it's okay. Who isn't vain? Can you blame someone for wanting to look more attractive? No you can't. Is he/she harming other people with what he/she is doing? Nope. In fact they're bringing about more job opportunities.

It's a question of how far you'd go to make yourself pretty.
I guess everyone needs to draw their own line for this issue.
We just need to accept that the line is drawn at different places for everyone, and stop attempting to erase other's lines and making them follow your line. It doesn't work that way.
This applies for everything else too, from sensitive stuff like religion, to anal things like, say, whether you want to eat icecream or jelly for dessert.

Yeah I won't do plastic surgery myself, but I won't condemn another person for having done it.

Anyway, I believe that if Suju did plastic surgery (which I think they have... ._.), it's not entirely their choice. (ahem LSM ahem.) Plus even if they chose it, can you blame them for wanting to look nicer for their fans?
Come to think about it, how is plastic surgery different from a haircut? Yeah other than the whole danger factor and how it's irreversable (while hair grows back all the time), moralistically speaking, aren't they both attempts to make yourself more attractive?

(Omg I think I can tidy up my posts and expand on them a bit more and I can present them in lit forum next year already XDD hahaha. Kidding.)

Oh, so because they're idols, they should be perfect and promote the art of natural beauty?
Idols aren't perfect. Their job isn't to be some ambassador for natural living. They can teach their fans other lessons. Fans can learn other things from them. Other things, that matters a lot more.
Stuff like (for fangirling sakes I'll give Suju examples for everything :D) teamwork (... obvious enough.), loving people around you (... obvious enough...), family (for me, especially Donghae and his father. ._.), friendship (......), hard work and perseverance (all the years they've spent as SM trainees, and HANGENG.), tolerance (responds to antis ._. and how they treat one another when one of them is in a bad mood etc), courage and strength (Kyu's car accident. Argh.), care (everything... from how Sungmin makes ginseng(?) tea for Teuk when he's not well to extreme times (e.g. car accidents :/ KYUTEUK AH. KICHUL AH. (uh using the "pairing names" here just for simplicity. Don't anyhow go YY :D) ) ), etc.
I believe for these things alone, they're worthy to be idolized.
(:

Oh, since we're on this topic, let's talk about idols smoking too.
Yeah so SUPPOSEDLY Suju smokes. Okay.
I won't act as if I wasn't shocked when I first heard this. (But honestly speaking I completely cannot imagine Donghae and Ryeowook smoking. And seriously Teuk Hangeng Eunhyuk aren't the type who's likely to smoke. ._. But anyway, ASSUMING SO.)
For a full minute, I wanted to scream things like "How could you let me down like that" (yeah and who am I to them -.- what let me down -.- excuse me I seem to be thinking too highly of myself.) "You guys should set good examples!" etc etc.
Then I thought of the entire chunk of stuff that I've typed above this. About how they've already set great examples for many many things for us. So I should be grateful.
And plus, I was trying to make them perfect again, wasn't I. :P

Yes it's true that they shouldn't smoke. But not because of rubbish reasons such as "YOU ARE FAMOUS. YOU ARE AN IDOL." etc etc.
Simply because it's bad for their health alone. (Esp you ah Park Jungsoo. -.- AND CHO KYUHYUN YOUR LUNGS LIKE THAT ALREADY YOU STILL WANT TO SMOKE YOU WANT TO DIE IS IT. -.- And Kim Jongwoon Kim Ryeowook smoking is bad for your throat. Esp you Kim Ryeowook if your throat dies how are you going to hit all those high notes?! And Lee Hyukjae dancing needs stamina. YOU NEED YOUR LUNG CAPACITY. You too Hangeng Shin Donghee. And Kim Heechul Kim Kibum Kim Yongwoon you guys have such pretty smiles with amazing white teeth, don't make them turn yellow -.- And Lee Donghae smoking just... isn't you. ~~Your dad won't want you to smoke.~~ Lee Sungmin smoking isn't your style. Yeah I know you're very man and etc but I thought you took up Wushu so that your body would be in good condition. So don't go spoil it. Choi Siwon yeah I know supposedly all rich CEOs should smoke or something but rich CEOs don't usually give up their business to become singers either. So why can't you be different all the way?)
Okay sorry I didn't mean for that to become some entire dedication thing -.- I've just wanted to scream at Park Jungsoo and Cho Kyuhyun alone. :P The rest uh, came out automatically. (Proof that you can't think of one member of Suju without thinking about the other 12. (: ) Sorry for all non-ELFs who had to read through that entire chunk of fangirl thoughts. Yeah.

Plus I believe they would quit smoking. Esp if ELFs asked them to. (Except we have no concrete proof that they smoke in the first place so uh, yeah.)

My personal belief is that, as long as it's not something seriously morally wrong, well, there's still room for consideration. You have to judge things on a case-by-case basis sometimes. Life isn't a round of the buzzer game (you know that game where you have to uh, go from one end of a wire bent into weird shapes to the other with this hoop thing without touching the sides of the wire at any point). One wrong move, one accidental touch, and you die.

And what if you love someone, in real life, who smokes?
Just because your Prince Charming smokes means you'll leave him?
Yeah I know it's hard to live with someone who smokes all the time, but won't you give him a second chance? To make him quit smoking? To wait for him while he tries to do that?
If you aren't willing to, I don't think you love that person at all in the first place.

We're always talking about giving ex-convicts a second chance in our society.
But maybe smokers need second chances too, chances of another sort.

Think about it. (:
Not going to force you to think like me, but this is how I'm going to think. :D

(Hey I'm not putting everyone into the giant container again okay! This time, there's no containers. I'm talking more about, lines this time. Where they're placed, and how they can be erased. And etc. Or something like that. I need to think of a good analogy for this... :P But it's an improvement right?)

And to think all these originated from an innocent video when the top half of my post was complaining about how I'm such a judgemental person -.-
So I'm like this.
So maybe me myself isn't perfectly fine with how I am.
But you can learn to accept me the way I am, together with me myself. :D

And so life as a fangirl is actually still pretty complicated after all. Hum.

And seriously, if I write expositions like this next year I'm going to get failed. Lala.

xoxos.

bored.

2009-12-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

I feel that there's a need to prove to the world and myself, after that previous post, that NO I'M NOT COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY LOONEY TUNES. Yet.
(But I'm definitely heading in that direction.)

Yeah this is what you get after you shut me in my house for... the 8th consecutive day. -.-
Okay so maybe I can't live on an island by myself when I grow up after all.
I shall just go live in some cottage by the sea and have a car. :D Then I can drive to random shopping centers and buy random stuff yay.
(Okay since when have I been addicted to shopping... O_O)

OKAY I'VE TURNED UTTERLY INCOHERENT. 8D
Okay I've just proven that I can't ever become 宅. 8D

Gah I missed so much for theatresports lah. ._________.
I shall be the most thick-skinned person on earth and go back next year. For the third year in a row. In June. (Unless it clashes with CAP. Assuming I get into CAP. Assuming I have anything to submit for CAP, at the rate I'm going. =.=)

Okay I conclude that the reason why my mind, soul, body, and blog are all in such crazy states is because, I'm simply too bored. My life is utterly boring. -.-
I'm bored of the internet, yay~

Thinking about taking extreme measures next year ^^
Though I'll probably drive myself crazy, but hey, some things you've got to give up for others no.
As I've evidently learnt this year. :P Lessons. (:

Shall post those extreme measures as resolutions I guess, once I've made sure they aren't just spur-of-the-moment thoughts. ^^

I've got to be more constructive. Seriously.
Lalala.

Alright back to staring blankly at Beliefs/WBXWJN/fanfiction.
Honestly hoping it doesn't end up being the last one. Lala.

YAY MY MOUSE IS DYING ON ME! -.-

:D

xoxos.

commercialization.

2009-12-07T14:54:00.003+08:00

First of all, a MV.

Key of Heart/BoA

Let me describe my uh, thought process throughout the course of watching the MV:
Stage 1: OH. MY. GOSH. LEE DONGHAE. YOU'RE TOO CUTE. (start of the MV... first shot of Hae... XD)
Stage 2: OMG SWEET! I'm jealous of BoA now -.-
Stage 3: OMG OMG OMG NO DONGHAE NOOOOOO (yeah I've reached the car accident scene. ._.)
Stage 4: O_O omg. Android? OMG.
Stage 5: ... the android is so ugly -.- It should look like Donghae! (okay sorry this is called stupid fangirl instincts. Plus the plotline would completely be ruined if the robot was identifable as Donghae ._.) But at least let it look more... uh. non-plastic-ish (which would have sort of destroyed the whole purpose of the video so yay. Told you this is stupid fangirl instincts. I mean to think that since Hae had to die (in the MV) his soul should at least be uh, placed in a better looking vessel (?! what the heck am I talking about now...) right... OKAY YOU GUYS SHOULD IGNORE THIS ENTIRE STAGE BECAUSE IT'S POINTLESS DIGRESSION FROM WHAT I WANT TO SAY. Yay.)
Stage 6: ... What's with the very nice shots given to the Olympus logo. O.O
Stage 7: Seriously the logo is irritating me.
Stage 8: I can't stand looking at some ugly robot advertising for Olympus cameras anymore.
Stage 9: OMG SHOTS OF DONGHAE! OMG OMG! -stops hating video immediately. the olympus logos are long forgotten. (Once again pardon the way my brain works.)
Stage 10: Oh. My. Gosh. That's. So. Sweet. OH MY.
Stage 11: But this video still feels like some advert for Olympus cameras. ._. IT IRRITATES ME.

So yeah the video is completely spoiled by. ADVERTISEMENT FOR OLYMPUS CAMERAS.
Okay yeah so they sponsored the making of this MV or something after all.
So a camera is essential for the plot development in the video after all.
Or is it?
._.
They could have perfectly well shot the whole MV MINUS those close-ups on the freaking logo -.-
And oh man even that lab is called Olympus technology lab. -.- -.- -.- Can you get more lame than that?
Plus come to think about it, it's quite stalkerish to go around taking pictures of someone. Even if it's during a public event and your subject is someone famous. ._. (Okay in that case all reporters are stalkers. Which is true actually.)
And someone needs to explain to me how on earth did Donghae manage to take a picture of himself showing BoA the necklace. -.-

So basically, this MV would have made a lot more sense if there wasn't introduction to a stupid camera in the first place. They could have very well used a PHONE to store the pictures. It could have been the phone's wallpaper.
._.

That would have been a lot better.
To me at least.

Okay I think I'm making this huge deal out of a single music video (and honestly speaking a lot of MVs in this world are a lot worse than this one, which is actually okay for MV standards. Plus Donghae was in it so I won't complain. Oh wait I've been complaining continuously in this post. Okay pardon me then. -.-)
But the thing is, if even music can be commercialized, what can't?

Back in the olden days, music was... simple.
Musicians were poor. Look at Beethoven. Mozart. Bach. They composed great pieces I don't think any of them were exactly millionaires. Which they deserve to be.
They loved music. Music for what it is. I mean sure they had concerts and stuff. Of course they would need an audience to hear them out.
That's all they did with their music. Play it for those who wanted to hear it.

Look at what has changed from then to now.
Concerts are no longer just concerts. It's became an entire show by itself.
Albums, styles, packaging, advertisements, music videos...
Sure, they're attractive. Entertaining.
Entertaining. Entertaining in what way.
Music was meant to be entertaining. Sure.
But are the listeners nowadays still entertained by the music alone? Or are they attracted to something else entirely?

I don't think people who listen to Beethoven's works are fans, so to speak. I don't think they would be attracted to his physical appearance (... ._.) or go googly-eyed at the sight of him and chase him around for autographs.

It's just for the music.

I mean yeah everyone seems to think that yeah, music is a vital part of my life! I can't live without music!
Including me.
But maybe we need to think about, which part of the music are we listening to.

I'm not saying this as if I'm so high and mighty and that "I'm not bothered by such superficial stuff, I'm much better than THIS". Because obviously I'm not.
But I think there's some part of the human soul that... holds music as something sacred. I mean, look at hymns. Caroling. People tend to sing for their beliefs. Sing to express their emotions. Sing to bring hope.

But is that what the music, that's being recorded at this very moment in recording companies from all over the world, still represent now?

I was watching One Million Star season 6 yesterday night.
Stopped watching when the 4th singer was singing.
The problem doesn't lie with the singers.
But the format of the show itself.
It's became like a variety show. I mean, teams?
Yeah it's a good idea to have someone to sort of mentor you, but I fail to see the point if they're changing the mentor every week -.- I mean if you want to give them a mentor, give them someone who would know each person well (yeah lah the mentor would probably die or something BUT IT'S NECESSARY.), not change the person every week... -.-
And the one-on-one competition format? It's absolutely -.-ish.
It's not about you and your voice, your singing anymore. It's about whether your singing is better than others.
Plus yeah it's entertaining in a way.
But I thought OMS is about SINGING. The audience should be entertained by your music. Not witty remarks. Save that for variety shows.

It's all commercialized.

For that matter, dancing.
Okay at least dance is related to music. You dance to music.
Fair enough.
But sometimes, you aren't given the choice to just sing, and not dance.
I mean look at Yesung. Ryeowook. Kyuhyun. They've just wanted to sing. I mean no offense to them (yeah guys you should know I love you dearly xD) but they aren't made for dancing. Yeah I'm all for challenging and improving yourself and trying out new stuff. But if they just wanted to sing, they should be allowed to just sing.
But nope, the Korean market doesn't allow a group that merely sings to exist by itself, only by forms of a subgroup, hence Suju-KRY.
So they must dance. So they're placed into a group with people who dance well like Eunhyuk Donghae Hankyung Shindong etc.
(Please note I'm using the names as a pure case study. No personal emotions. (: Or at least trying to have no personal emotions...)
So they could sing and others could dance and together, they would make an appealing group to the public.
And sure enough the people are appealed. Yay and bravo to SME.

Okay before fellow ELFs start hunting me down and demand "what on earth do you mean, you call yourself an ELF?!" "How can you insult Suju like that, as if each member could ONLY dance or sing or something?!"
I'M NOT SAYING THAT.
All that I'm saying is that, they are TALENTED in that field.
Music is about talent. Yeah and hardwork, but primarily about talent. Look at Kyu, he's worked really hard at dancing and hey, he danced the Eunhyuk solo in Sorry Sorry once! (Yeah and Yesung laughed super hard at him but anyway... I found his dancing fantastic personally. :D) Yewook's dancing's great too. And Hankyung singing 背叛 is omg. :P Donghae's singing has always been good, just that his dancing is better (ahem biased pov here ahem). I loved the Shindong & Eunhyuk lines in It's You. (:
What I wanted to say is, if they didn't want to dance, and just sing (or vice versa), they should be respected for that.
THAT'S MY POINT.

But nope, the Korean market is too commercialized to accept that. JUST singing/dancing isn't enough. It must be both. Oh plus rapping too.

So the entertainment market is like this nowadays.

So once again I don't know what I've accomplished with this post.
Yay~

(And seriously I hope no ELF is insulted by anyway by the example I gave. I MEAN HELLO I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR WITH ALL MY HEART TOO. (okay at least half my heart. The other half is reserved for 213 and other people whom I'll meet in real life -.-) I WASN'T DOUBTING ANYONE'S ABILITY TO DANCE/SING. -.- Maybe it's a problem with my choice of words, or maybe you've just read that wrongly. -shrug- POINT IS, I MEANT NO HARM. I RESPECT EVERY MEMBER OF SUJU FOR WHAT THEY'RE DOING. If you don't believe that, there's nothing I can do to make you believe that, so yeah. It's not like I can dig my brain out as a proof as to what I "truly" think. One thing about me is that seriously, I DON'T LIE ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS. Okay?! Just because this world is so fake doesn't necessarily mean I'm fake too. :D Because I've said, I don't come from this world. I come from Saturn.)

(Oh if by some miraculous chance, you're the marketing head of the Olympus company and you thought of this entire concept of the Keys of Heart MV and you're reading my blog (why you would be doing so is entirely beyond me), and you're entirely insulted by me and feel like screaming at me because I'm such a b_ _ _ _ etc, but can't because I HAVE NO TAGBOARD (ha.), well go deal with it. Or attempt to flood the comments of my blog. Or my email if you can find out what it is. Or just continue living with those thoughts of hatred towards me in your brain. Hey, you hate me, I hate your ideas, fair enough?)
(Oh this applies for any crazy fangirls too. Though I don't think any of those would be attracted to my blog. :D)

Okay sorry for that chunk of ego nonsensical digression up there. :P You have no idea how fun it is to argue with an imaginary subject inside your brain. :P
This is why I think I'm crazy.
^^v

The society is honestly, stupid.
Gosh.

xoxos.

familiar.

2009-12-05T13:06:00.007+08:00

Yay I'm entirely bored. 8D
-state of refusing to do homework/anything constructive/non-constructive-ness -.- -
See I've even ran out of non-constructive things to do. -.- -.- -.-

Family is after all, still family eh.
:P
Much as you think they don't matter. Hurh hurh.

Ageing is... sad. Stupid.
A necessary part of life. ._.

Paparazzi/Lady Gaga

This song's MV is quite cool actually, except it's too... suggestive for me -.-
I can't stand women flaunting around in overly revealing clothes so yay me. :D
But I like the song's melody and lyrics (:
I'll follow you around until you love me. XD

OMG PLEASE LET ME BE FREE TO GO OUT OF THE HOUSE BY MONDAY. -.-
I'm seriously decomposing at home. GAH. .____________.

/edit/
Okay my state of decomposition have just uh, ended abruptly.
By one video of It's You live version -.-
I thus I conclude I've reached a state of such patheticness that one video is enough to bring me back to life. -.-
Yay.

Oh, I was thinking about the It's You parody. (Yeah STILL that one after all these ~~years~~ months.)

Yeah this one.

It's You/Super Junior, parody by kimheechullover

The sad thing is, it's not really that funny after all.
Because well, yeah. You know what it's talking about.
-sigh-
Kim Kibum, YOU CANNOT GO.
(Esp when I'm watching Full House and falling in love with you... XD)

Gah.

and it's a beautiful deception.
Sigh.

I wanna live alone. :PP
:D

xoxos.

melon.

2009-12-04T17:59:00.005+08:00

Li Xinzhuo, don't you think that since you can't go for theatresports, you might as well as be able to say proudly, "but I finished all my holiday homework!" instead of "yeah... I had a very nice time slacking off...".

Fine.
Good point.

-Image of Lee Donghae shouting "Hwaiting" piaos past in head.-
FINE.

continuing this post later. if I have anything else to say.

GAH I'M JEALOUS OF THE PEOPLE IN DHS (probably) EATING DINNER NOW. -.-
Jiayou guys... :P -May 7带I beat everyone ^^v-

/edit/
I was staring at the 213 class blog (in its full purple gayness ^^) (while thinking thoughts about the first days of school next year and how I'm supposed to formally introduce Yueling and Jasmine?! XDD) and suddenly it hit me again.
Gosh next year we're going to have a different class blog. 5 different class blogs actually. 5 different class blogs for us to zihigh/scream over things or people that we're in love with at the moment/current obsessions/random thoughts/complain about too much homework/declare we're bored/talk about random pointless stuff next year.
I think I may go for weeks, maybe months without seeing that purple background.

I guess I'll miss it.
I think I already do.
I already miss those days in 213.
GAH.

-People this is called being-too-bored-at-home syndrome. Yes.-

I love 213.

xoxos.

.

2009-12-03T23:07:00.003+08:00

----------Warning: this post is completely fangirly and becomes disturbing towards the end. So yeah proceed with caution. Or you may choose to not proceed at all. 8D----------

OMG THIS IS TOO CUTE FOR WORDS. <3
I admit, actually I don't know Lee Donghae after all. :P
Even if I memorized all these trivia facts about him, I still won't know him completely.
But I'll try anyway. (:

See Lee Donghae this is called a dedication post if one has ever been written. :PP

Since it's a semi-dedi already I might as well as expand on it.

I'M WAITING VERY IMPATIENTLY FOR THE TRANSLATION OF THE LYRICS OF BEAUTIFUL. :PP

And honestly speaking, Lee Donghae ah, may I know, why is your singing always softer than the rest XD
不过也好啦, 需要静下心来听到的声音, 是最纯洁滴~
Honestly speaking, Lee Donghae's voice gives me this ultra fragile feeling -.-
Matches his personality no. -.- -.- -.-
Ah well but I like it like this. ^^v

I want to see the day when Kyuhyun and Donghae sing a duet together (:
(No shipping intentions, but it's true, Kyu's voice has that... solid feel to it. Like it's reliable. Hae's voice is... sharp. Penetrating. Kyu's voice is penetrating in the way that it sinks into your soul, Hae's voice stabs it. Not in a bad way. :P)
I want to hear the effects eh XDD Like in It's You, the first 2 lines~~ XD
/edit/
Oh yeah forgot about Way Back Into Love. :P And Happy Bubble~ But that doesn't count because there's still people singing with them -.-

:D

Honestly these days I've been swinging from Lee Donghae to Cho Kyuhyun and back. -.- (Uh Park Jungsoo I still love you. :P Okay mushyishly fangirlishly speaking, it's like, I don't need to try to like you, it's part of me already. I mean it's that way for everyone in Suju, but especially you. Like, you're seriously a part of me already. -.- Like I can't give you any more love. :P Does that make sense?)
Yay~

Okay I shall go read ANOTHER Kyumin fic now ^^v

8D

xoxos.

thoughts.

2009-12-03T13:52:00.005+08:00

I was reading a fanfic last night.
Not exactly news.
But that fanfic made me want to get up at 4am in the morning, turn on the computer and blog.
Okay I didn't, because I wanted time to calm down.
But I guess I shouldn't have, I always express things better when I'm NOT calm. -.-
Oh well whatever.

Homosexuality.
Yeah I know this was what I wanted to do my LA speech on (inappropriate much). But actually I realise, what I want to say about this topic isn't as much as I thought it would be.
But after that fanfic last night, I need to sort out my thoughts.

Being a fangirl of Korean stars means that you'll definitely be exposed to alleged relationships between members of the same gender in the same group.
Maybe you're freaked out by them, maybe you despise them, or maybe you support them.
Maybe after being exposed to this type of stuff for too long, you start to accept the idea. Of romantic relationships existing within the same gender.

I guess that's a good sign.
People are getting more open-minded.
Or maybe they just realise that, actually gay, or lesbian relationships, aren't that bad or scary after all.
They're still normal human beings, still look as "aesthetically appealing" (©zouyan XD) as ever.
Just that the objects of their affection are of the same gender as they are.

Yeah it's not normal.
But who are we to call someone else abnormal?

It's good, that this world, or at least our generation (okay I officially sound like some 40 years old social science professor getting interviewed for some research paper O_O) is getting more open-minded. More accepting.
That's good.
(Actually it has never really made sense to me. Why are young people always more open to new concepts than the adults eh? Is it because this world is still relatively new to them, and they don't have a fixed view on how things SHOULD be like? :P Possible. Hum.)

Honestly speaking, there ISN'T anything wrong with gay relationships.
It's just, emotions. Thoughts. Stimulus from the brain.
You can't find fault with emotions. You can't define emotions.
Everyone has the right to feel the way they want to.
So why is it that for certain types of feelings, there is more, what, justification? Rights? Powers? And less for the other types?

It sounds completely childish and cliche and overused and idealistic and etc, but I believe in the right to love someone. Since like forever.
And if you're allowed to love, why not to marry?

Yeah I know the human race would probably be extinct if everyone married people of the same gender.
But after all homosexuals are still the minority of the society. Most of the people in this world still have affections for people of the opposite gender.
I don't think there's a need to worry about the continuation of the human species at this stage, in fact. At the rate babies are born, Earth is probably going to have no space to accomodate the human population one day.
So, what's the entire deal against marriage within the same gender?
What's so wrong about it?
Someone, please explain it to me.

Thank you.

If I really grow up to be a journalist (which is the most tempting career option to me as of now...), and this entire homosexuality saga is still going on, maybe my first feature article would be about this.
:D

This is why I want to be a journalist. ^^v

I realise after all these years (...?!), I'm still as much of a bookworm as I had been before.
Yay me.

xoxos.

dreams.

2009-12-02T11:18:00.007+08:00

Okay actually it's not dreams, just a dream.

But anyway.

It's quite stupid and everything but oh well, I guess you can go decipher some metaphoric meanings from it yourself. 8D

Yeah I sort of forgot how it started and everything but somehow, Mel and Dinnie were uh, murdered by some unknown forces. O_O And I was there to witness it. FOR SOME REASON.
(And they were like chased to some unknown place where there's nothing. Except soil. O_O and for some reason I thought it was part of ny. -.-)
So they were killed after being chased around some giant brown plateau by a man in black with a gun.
I get this feeling Mel died after she fell down from the plateau -.- -.- -.-

-Okay my memory fails me. SKIP.-

Everyone was traumatized and everything... For some reason I was at home. Then I was trying to hurry up and get onto MSN so that the thirteeners could have a mass convo about this thing and yeah.
Then for some reason I went to bathe. (NO LINK.)
When I came back Daphne was in my room?! She was crying -.- and she gave me a phone.

They were conference-calling Mel. Who's dead. Supposedly.
"They" being me Mel Dom Fang and uh, I can't remember who else.
And the conversation was completely retarded, and I remember thinking, "Oh this is so Mel." -.- I remember hearing stuff about pink O_O
And Mel said she was on Saturn? O_O
Okay then yeah, after tons of pointless conversation, Dom suddenly said, "Okay guys Mel is crying. We need to hang up." When we were still talking about random pink stuff seconds ago. Uh-huh.
(And can I mention how when this call took place, I wasn't in my room actually, but was in some black space of nothingness, where there wasn't actually a phone, but everyone's voice was just coming to me as if they're just beside me, but they won't be there if I tried to reach out to touch them? Yeah. My dream doesn't make sense...)
Then everyone hang up but I got this feeling Daphne didn't so I tried to talk to her and ask her if she's still crying (-.-) when suddenly Shihui's voice popped up.
O________O

She was apparently in Daphne's garden. Hiding behind some bush.
(I had this image of her behind a bush and her entire body is hidden except the top of her head. Which looked like a mushroom. -.- -.- -.- Okay ignore.)
I was like, "Isn't it like 10pm... what are you doing in Daphne's garden?" (Don't ask me if Daphne has a garden. -.-)
She was like, "Oh my parents sent me here!"
Okay someone needs to tell me, whose parents would be as insane as to send their daughter to her classmate's GARDEN at 10pm at night when her classmates have just been murdered by some unknown man in a newly discovered plateau in nygh?
I was like, "... how are you getting home later?"
Shihui: I'm going home by myself! (in a very accomplished tone.)
..............Ihavenothingtosay................
And then Shihui reported that Daphne wasn't sad at all and was having some tea party with some weird creatures with complicated names that I can't remember what.
Oh btw those creatures were aliens.

See this dream makes so much sense.

I completely forgot what happened after that.
Something along the lines of me going to find Shihui and then suddenly ts people appeared =.= (I remember Shilun and Tinjun were there =.= =.= =.= Like whaaaaaaaaaat?)
(Oh maybe they came to find me at my house. Then we went somewhere. I remember freaking out about wearing the wrong pair of slippers out of the house -.-)

So yay, nonsensical dreams!
:D

Go analyse it all you want. I have some analysis in mind already but anyway.

(And don't ask me where's the rest of the class. I think they were "talking" to Dinnie or something. XD)

I conclude I'm too bored at home. Sigh.
(Or maybe I've just gone bonkers.)

THEATRESPORTS DDDD:
Argh well.

/edit/
So it still hurts.
Maybe I would be used to this. One day.
But it's not that easy.

Not like there's anything you can do about it.
It's all your freaking fault anyway.

(Nope, not what you're thinking. ^^v)

Out of control.

xoxos.

identify.

2009-12-01T13:49:00.008+08:00

Life takes effort.
Problem lies in, who will make the effort.

Some things, are beyond logic, beyond reasoning, beyond the rights and wrongs.
It goes back to the gut feelings.
Question is, do we listen to them.

Well it's comforting to know that not EVERYONE in this world is a complete idiot.
No, everyone's just an INCOMPLETE idiot.

What do you think?
Oh, I don't know. I think I've stopped thinking.

爽约/许哲佩

Ahaha. Irony is beautiful XD
(But I need to say this, THE DINOSAURS ARE SO UGLY. :PP I'm irritated by them... 8D)

Gin's right, 许哲佩 songs are cool. 8D
(Yay since I can't go for theatresports I shall attempt to "upgrade" my mandopop taste. 8D)

/edit/
I realise most of the people whom I like are all 创作型 people...
(Yeah I'm starting to like 张芸京. Yay~ Not in the same way that I like Suju of course. I mean, there's that difference between like and love. ;) )

I've not realised it until now, that this type of people... tend to be more sincere. More genuine.
It's true. I mean look at Queen. Look at A-Jing.
After all, you're already sharing a part of your soul with this world.
How much more sincere can you get?

xoxos.

conflict.

2009-11-30T14:46:00.007+08:00

1) Lin Youjia SERIOUSLY looks like Nigahiga. -.-
2) This song's lyrics DON'T MAKE SENSE. (But I like the line "我没有说谎是爱情说谎它带你来骗我说可我没有可能有希望" aside from the fact it doesn't make sense =.= But yeah lah, can sort of get the meaning and if you edit it a bit SO THAT IT'S GRAMMATICALLY CORRECT, it's actually quite a cool line. :D)
3) Lin Youjia's singing is... not for me. :P

So I don't understand, why does the chorus of this song keep getting stuck in my mind -.-

(Yeah this is the fanfic that made me go listen to this song... yay...)

Okay yay my handphone's prepaid officially expired... Yay...
Oh my topup card, I call out for you~ XD
(Okay before that I need to call out for my allowance. And for my wonderful poxy (O_O) to disappear so that I can actually get out of the house -.-)

Go away chicken pox. I WANT TO GO FOR TS LAH STUPID. ._________.

-sighsighsigh-

/edit/
I saw this on tieba and started laughing insanely to myself.

最近大家纠结于兔子长胖这件事
原因有二
一是专辑忙完了，稍稍轻松一点造成的，胖了

另一个原因有个亲总结得很好
兔子只要13不在就胖，13一回韩国就瘦
看来是13在的时候兔子太操劳了

XDD
^^

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo.
CREEP <3

(Yeah I'm so bored since I've got chicken pox and everyone's at Dunman High learning how to play DANGER ROUND GAMES, I'm listening to 超级偶像 songs. =.= 张芸京's pretty awesome though. :D)
(And I'm tidying up my song collection in my phone. -.- See how bored I am... Seeing how I've returned to the days of refusing-to-do-anything-constructive-ness. ._.)
Yay me.

Oh my mom gave me a handphone casing... to protect my phone...
Okay... A bit late le horh... My phone is already uh, severely scratched...
Nvm handphone casings will prevent my phone from becoming as screwed as Xuedi's ex-phone :P (Okay it's a bit hard to reach her 境界 anyway... BUT STILL.)

THE WHOLE WORLD IS WATCHING YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL =.= =.= =.=
Yeah but as you know, I've never entirely fit in with this world so yay~ :D

xoxos.

drop.

2009-11-29T16:23:00.002+08:00

I conclude piaoing around sweet-2h is bad for your mental health XD
:PP

Yay my D-drive is now being cluttered by episodes of EHB, Super Adonis and Unbelievable outing~ And who knows what else...
:D Oh yeah Suju Show episodes. Whee~

I WANT MY JILIANJIMO3 SHITISHU :P And zuishidonghai said the FINAL ending would only be revealed in the book O_O
THAT'S COMPLETELY MEAN :PPPPPPP Lalala.
AND I WANT THE CARD STICKERS LAH OMGOMGOMG.
:P

Okay I shall piao off to read books. Yay~~
(Which are all not on the reading list. I need to clear up space on my library card so that I can borrow books lah :P)

xoxos.

tootness.

2009-11-28T22:45:00.003+08:00

Talking to Yueling is... amusing...

gay hugs and whatnot.

W says (21:12):
oh man D:
i send you a gay hug! ^^
/hikari.\ says (21:12):
LOL
then you'll get the virus from me.
wait you have chicken pox already before?
W says (21:12):
yeah
/hikari.\ says (21:13):
haha okay!
W says (21:13):
i just asked my mum T_T
/hikari.\ says (21:13):
in that case spam the gay hugs.
ROFL
W says (21:13):
SPAM SPAM!
--squishes you--
/hikari.\ says (21:13):
did she look at you weirdly and ask why are you asking such a random question XD
LOL~
W says (21:13):
kinda ._.
hahaha

ninja~ says (21:27):
see my pm!

(It reads, "sends TONS of gay hugs to laolao~ be honoured dear <3 " (: )

(a while later)
/hikari.\ says (21:36):
-refer to my pm-

(It reads, -returns les hugs to yueling 8D- XDD)

ninja~ says (21:37):
sexual clash ._.
ninja~ says (21:39):
we are like announcing our love for each other ._.
wrong!
/hikari.\ says (21:40):
LOL
it's okay~
ninja~ says (21:40):
OKAY?
-freaks out-

:D

(Okay let's rewind time now.)

Let's go back to the topic of chicken pox. yay.

ninja~ says (21:27):
anyway, how did you get it?!
/hikari.\ says (21:28):
LOL
uh.
I HAVE NO IDEA. ._______.
/hikari.\ says (21:29):
I think some random person whom I've met at one of the random locations I've been to in the past 2 weeks spread it to me
ninja~ says (21:29):
allow me to drop my KIND stance and laugh for two seconds xD

/hikari.\ says (21:59):
-I'm hoping my chicken pox recovers by sunday -.- -
ninja~ says (21:59):
TMR?!
/hikari.\ says (22:00):
uh
*next sunday.
XD
you leaving tomorrow meh O_O
ninja~ says (22:00):
nope
next sunday!
/hikari.\ says (22:00):
LOL!
haha okay~
ninja~ says (22:00):
you can come send me off youknow!
O_O
/hikari.\ says (22:01):
LOL
if I'm okay by then...

ninja~ says (22:01):
-.-
better now
not*
later i get it a second time!
xD
/hikari.\ says (22:03):
LOL!
haha yeah...
when you're in nz some more O_O
even more suay...
XD
ninja~ says (22:03):
yes
then i cant go horse back riding
I'LL SERIOUSLY KILL YOU!
/hikari.\ says (22:06):
LOL!
omg cool~
(as in the horseback riding part.)
ninja~ says (22:06):
D:
/hikari.\ says (22:06):
(not the killing me part.)
ninja~ says (22:06):
haha both are cool! ^^

... Conclusion: One more sadist has been discovered in this world.
(Anyway if I die now my body would be covered with blister-ish chicken pox. Which is gross. At least let me die relatively-glamly can. :P)

Crow Calls.

ninja~ says (22:14):
okay i've come to realise the fact that
our conversations are actually quite amusing
but need more crows to fly past
/hikari.\ says (22:15):
CROWS?
crows: did we hear someone summoning us?
ninja~ says (22:15):
yeah (:
crows: yes we did!
/hikari.\ says (22:15):
*uh my MSN crow emote (obviously) doesn't work on blogger. so yeah.*
your wish is our command!
*the onionhead emote doesn't work either. aww.*
/hikari.\ says (22:16):
-spam crows-
ninja~ says (22:16):
...
you have my permission to leave (,crows)
/hikari.\ says (22:17):
crows: D:
fine... *insert crow emotes again*
(this is the process of exiting)
ninja~ says (22:17):
see what i mean! amusinggg~
ninja~ says (22:18):
i love crows
NOT
/hikari.\ says (22:19):
D:
crows: (from backstage) how can you not love us... -goes off to dressing rooms to sulk-
ninja~ says (22:19):
*throws lipstick after them*
/hikari.\ says (22:20):
LOL!
ninja~ says (22:20):
okay im really amused
/hikari.\ says (22:20):
oh
and uh.
ninja~ says (22:21):
?
/hikari.\ says (22:21):
vanessa just had very "amusing" news for me
ninja~ says (22:21):
?
/hikari.\ says (22:21):
apparently I got my chickenpox from Daphne
ninja~ says (22:21):
HUH?!
/hikari.\ says (22:21):
who had it during Malacca trip
ninja~ says (22:21):
SERIOUS! ^
SUMMONS CROWS!
/hikari.\ says (22:21):
and kept proclaiming she had some weird disease and was going to die
ninja~ says (22:21):
hohoho~
/hikari.\ says (22:22):
crows: YAY WE GET TO APPEAR ON STAGE AGAIN!
ninja~ says (22:22):
*arms myself with lipsticks*
/hikari.\ says (22:24):
LOL
actually I don't see how lipsticks help with anything.
O_O
ninja~ says (22:24):
its to make to crow turn slightly red, so that they'll be visible on stage, cos they are BLACK!
/hikari.\ says (22:25):
*crows*
I see.
ninja~ says (22:26):
oops its "make the crows"
/hikari.\ says (22:26):
okay I'm going to hire crows to help me move props next time
:D
ninja~ says (22:26):
(whispers:where is this conversation leading to?)
/hikari.\ says (22:26):
(nowhere. yay~)

Okay I skip all the rest~ Yay~

Lalalalala.

This explains the title. :D
Okay I'm sleepy le. :PP
Whee~

xoxos.

complaints.

2009-11-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hi.
I'm here to file my complaint.
ABOUT MY IMMUNE SYSTEM.

Yeah so I have chicken pox and I'm going to miss TS from now onwards -.-
I'm really hoping I recover by next Friday (in exactly a week) then I'll be able to go for reflections on Saturday (don't ask me what would be the point of going for reflections when I don't know anything that has happened... -.- :P). .________.

Okay, realistically speaking, it could be worse.
I mean I can get it before prod or before A-levels or before Sec4 eoys/any block test or before some overseas trip or before class chalet. :P Or on the first week of school or something.
Or I could have gotten it before SYF and I could go kill myself.
BUT TS MATTERS A LOT TO ME TOO. GAHHHHHH.
AND I WANT TO WATCH THEM PLAY DANGER ROUND GAMES LAH.
SIANSIANSIANSIANSIAN.
.________.
And I really want to know how pro the Macau group is...
And I want to see my group's voting box + poster...
And I want to dance the opening dance lah!
And I want to see how the intro for Tao Hua Xiao La Jiao (and all the other groups too...) would change... and I want to see their posters too... and voting box... and I want to bond with my group...
GAH IT SUCKS TO BE SICK DURING TS PERIOD.
STUPID VIRUS COULDN'T YOU HAVE WAIT UNTIL A WEEK LATER...
=.=
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Okay. According to Vanessa Daphne had chicken pox during Malacca trip O_O (So that was the supposedly deadly disease that she had =.=)
SO YES DAPHNE LO THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT.
:PPP

Okay looking on the bright side, this gives me a LOT of time to do stuff that I want to do but would have no time to do...
Like
1) WRITE. WRITE. WRITE.
2) READ. READ. READ.
3) (sabotage my grandfather into) Buying sec3 textbooks...
4) Holiday homework .__.
5) It's You piano playing!
6) Finish Full House and stuff like Camp Adonis and Super Junior Show and other random dramas.
7) Uh. Neopets. THE ADVENT CALENDAR IS VERY IMPORTANT OKAY. (Yeah so what if I'm 14 and I'm still playing Neopets... :P)
8) Audition? :P Maybe...
9) AFF? Maybe...
10) Generally slack around and enjoy life and fangirl before Sec3 starts :P

Whee.

Oh can you believe it, medication for chicken pox cost $100+. =.=
Very brilliant. I can buy my textbooks with that money le lorh :P

Reasons why my father is going to go broke:
1) My medicine ah.
2) I need printer ink.
3) I need my textbooks.
4) I need my allowance.
Yay.

Lalalalalala.

CHICKEN POX, APPEAR QUICKLY AND GO AWAY QUICKLY. Then if I'm lucky I can still go for TS. (... Yeah right... Dream on...)
Lalalalalalalala.

New definition for CIP (Chickenification In Progess): the process in which your skin is covered by chicken pox~
(I still have no idea in what way are blister-like things related to CHICKENS. :P)
(Speaking of which why are problems with skin always related to birds eh? Goosebumps, chicken pox... :P)

Lalalalala.

xoxos.

prick.

2009-11-27T21:59:00.003+08:00

It's hard to share something that isn't of significance to you.
But it's equally as hard to share something that is of significance to you.
:P

Mixpod just screwed up on me -.-
GIVE ME BACK MY PROPER SONG ORDER + TITLES LAH .______.
/edit: oh yeah it stopped screwing up. 8D/

Okay I've got some weird spots on my body O_O
Praying that it's not chicken pox .______. YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME, I WANT TO GO FOR TS FINALS!!!! ._.
But my grandmother said they shouldn't be chicken pox lah. .____. See how tomorrow :P

Whee.
Pointless post...

Cross reference. (:

xoxos.

waka.

2009-11-26T21:50:00.004+08:00

Nanyang girls are guy-deprived.
Period.
Oh and gossip-deprived.
Or just deprived in general. ;)

:P
8D

I. NEED. NEW. EARPHONES. ._______.
Whee~

WHO WANTS TO COME FOR TS PERFORMANCE, 041209, DHS PERFORMING ARTS CENTRE, 7.30pm, TIX @ $5 EACH (buy 4 get 1 free O_O)~
I have an entire booklet of 30 tickets with me -.- (with ticket number 130 8D and 132 too~~ WAKA TAKE PICTURE 8D) Thanks to the fact that I'm group leader (...) :P
Lalalalala.

Come come come~ There's people dancing Nobody, Gee and Sorry Sorry~ 8D (And you'll see ME dance. Not kpop related dances lah but anyway. :P I mean like in what way do I look like someone who dances... this might be your only chance to see me dance~~ XD So you might as well as come and laugh at me~ And I'll (most likely) be playing games too -.- one of your rare chances to see me on stage you know XD (I tend to stay backstage in nyjf so yay~ XD) DON'T MISS IT~~)
:D

MY THROAT IS DEAAAAAAD. .______.
MY SHOULDERS ARE EQUALLY AS DEAD .__________.
Lalalalala.

I shall attempt to come up with some schedule to plan my time after ts. Yes. :P
Je vais se revellier a 7 heures et faire du courir (okay my grammar officially doesn't make sense.)~
Puis, je vais retourner a la maison et je vais se doucher.
Ensuite, je vais faire les devoirs et lire.
Je vais manger la dejeuner et ecrirer dans l'apres-midi~
Au soir, je vais aller a la mediatheque pour CIP~
(Yay nonsensical French. 8D)
As if I'll stick by this plan ._.
But I'll try. :P
CAP IS FIRST PRIORITY. LALALA. (:

Hwaiting me~ XD

xoxos.

cheers.

2009-11-23T19:24:00.004+08:00

Yay.
Finally reached my wonderful decision.
Li Xinzhuo you'd better do well for your IH. And Advanced Lit. And LA. And everything else too.
8D
I'm looking forward to the next 2 years being a tenner~~ (: WE'LL MAKE 310 A CLIQUE-FREE ENEMIES FREE CLASS WHERE EVERYONE LOVES EVERYONE(: :D

No perfect solution. But I don't need one. (:

TS... was... okay. I think we need more time to all get enthu (plus a serious lot of last year's enthu people aren't there ._.) and get to know each other and everything. Lalala I can barely remember my group members' names... ._. I shall go revive spot-lit after 13million years :PP Yay... So go there if you want to read about the camp :P (Why you would want to do so, is actually beyond me. Whatever.)
Really glad to see some old faces(: Surprised that some didn't go again though. (And glad that some certain clouds didn't bother to make a reappearance. Oh yeah~)
Stress stress stress. :P 5 TEAMS OUT OF 8, WHAAAAAAAT?! .______. (Okay sorry not coherent le. :P)

I have to miss a LOT of CIP because of camp lah ._. Not that I honestly mind but anyway...
Gah I NEED 50 FREAKING CIP HOURS LAH. ._______. (Okay which I actually will have, if I go for all the sessions I've signed up for. Except I maybe get too lazy and skip everything and yeah. :P)
I still can't believe how I managed to finish 60 hours in NOVEMBER last year O_O Think I was crazy... :P (And utterly no life. Not like I very have life now but well...)

TIME. TIME. TIME. I NEED MORE TIME. ._.
I need some day to get back to ny and buy textbooks .________. Which may end up being after TS which is like next next week when holidays are half over already ._.

Gosh where did my holidays vanish to eh?! ._.
(You asked for it. :P)
(Fine.)

Okay I need to majorly go bathe now and then think of some group name (WHY ON EARTH AM I THE GROUP LEADER. WHY. WHY. WHY. I DEMAND TO KNOW WHY.), read the 深蓝 updates (this is why I seriously proclaim zuishidonghai has a split personality -.-), renew my books, ask my mom about the entire third earhole thing ._. (and probably get stared at weirdly -.-), type my ts post, and go get some sleep early. :D
And go form some coherent list of the stuff I want to write.

Good plan?
Uh, actually no.

OH WHATEVER.

:P

Oh and sms my groupmates to tell them, I'm replacing Weihui. So don't send TS emails/smses to Weihui. -.- Or she'll be constantly harrassed for the next 2 weeks... possibly 2 months... (Due to outings~)

MSN just died on me. Yay.
-.-
Fantastic eh.

Oh I officially proclaim, ELFs are everywhere.
I need to go talk to Charmaine~ About fangirling matters. :P IF THEIR GROUP IS HONESTLY CALLED SUJU-M I'LL GO HARRASS THEM (and May) EVERYDAY. XD

Lalala. Group 7~ 7 is a nice number~ :P
Okay I seriously need to head to spot-lit because my entire brain's flooded with TS-related matters. Yay.

Lalalalala I FORGOT THE DANCE STEPS ALREADY -.- Yay me...

Okay sorry. Completely not sane / thinking clearly le. :P
Better go revive my sanity with a shower and some milo (... left over from class chalet...). :P

Maybe it's more than choice.
Maybe it's fate. (Yeah since when have I started believing in things like fate... -.-)

Whatever it is, I'm glad.
Really glad. (:

xoxos.

lazy.

2009-11-22T21:40:00.003+08:00

la⋅zy
/ˈleɪzi/ [ley-zee]
adjective, -zi⋅er, -zi⋅est, verb, -zied, -zy⋅ing.

–adjective
1. averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent.
2. causing idleness or indolence: a hot, lazy afternoon.
3. slow-moving; sluggish: a lazy stream.

Whatever it means, it describes my current frame of mind currently.

Sorry, I'm too lazy to be nice.
:D
Too lazy to make myself high.
Too lazy to feel.
Too lazy to sort out thoughts.
Too lazy to write down thoughts.
Too lazy to phrase everything properly.
Too lazy to be creative.

Just too lazy. (:

I'm too lazy to care.

OH YOU RETARDED IDIOT. GO M-O-T-I-V-A-T-E YOURSELF.
Go read all your books.
Go buy the sec3 textbooks. (Go buy the Advanced Lit texts for HP too and go decipher some meaning of life from them yourself. :D)
Go do your holiday homework.
Go get writing.
Go pen down your inspiration before they're forgotten.
Go ask your mom if you can pierce another earhole before she goes back to Malaysia.
Go sit in front of the piano and play.
Go sign in to Audition and play.
Go to TS and have fun. Socialize. Talk. Don't be some social recluse. Open your mouth.
Go edit your stories.
Go understand how to describe anything... -.-
Go.

Like, when on earth was the last time when you've seriously sat in front of the computer and typed something SERIOUS?! In SEPTEMBER?!
Oh go kill yourself and knock some sense back into you Li Xinzhuo.
YOU HAVE NO FREAKING TIME LEFT. TWO WEEKS ARE GONE. ANOTHER 2 ARE GONE TOO. You've made yourself busy. You asked for it.
WHEN ON EARTH ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE TIME TO WRITE.

Inspiration isn't something you can ask for you know.
So while you still have some faint traces of it floating around in your head, go write.

...
I reread what I wrote for SLDTT.
I'm in love with my own story =.=
EXCEPT I CAN'T GET BACK THAT FEEL!!!!!!!! .___________.
GAHGAHGAHGAHGAH.

How do I continue with my own story... -.-

OH GAH LI XINZHUO YOU. FAIL. MISERABLY. SERIOUSLY.

And today is like the last calm day I get before the next 2 weeks of utter insanity.
Sigh.

So it's probably not a good time for me to get back my touch. And have fun losing it again over the course of the next 2 weeks. ._.
Lalala.
(Yeah and you can continue deceiving yourself. -.-)

I'll try.
I'm trying.

For, well, everything.

:D

Shut off~ :D

xoxos.

nothing.

2009-11-21T01:06:00.002+08:00

If you were here.

It's what you've wanted.
Shouldn't you be happy.

It's what you want.
Shouldn't you try for it.

It's what you wanted.
So why do you still want more.

I don't know what I want. Not anymore.

What WOULD it take to satisfy you eh?

I'd like to know too.

(Btw I'm talking about 3 entirely different things here. Each comes from a different aspect of my life, or should I say, split personality of mine. (: )

Measuring up. Hurh hurh.

Going. Going. Gone.

xoxos.

analysis.

2009-11-20T17:15:00.003+08:00

(Yeah I'm so ._.ed by the fact that we're splitting class that I did this.)

There are 35 people in 310'10, with one that is soon to abandon us for 314.
I am index number 20 in that class. For now. Soon to be 19.
Is it just me or is it seriously unusual for someone, whose name starts with a L, which is somewhere in the middle of the alpabets, to have a index number above 15?! ._.

Out of these 35 people, 6 are from 213. Which is about 1/6 of the class. After the abovementioned person leaves there will be 5 thirteeners left, which is 1/7 of the class.
I know another 13 of the people in the class (as in can match their name to the face...). Even though I think most of them don't know me. -.- Oh whatever.
(1 person (Yixing) from my CCA, 3 are from my French class (excluding Yixing). Rest are... uh, through various mysteriously unknown means.)
Which means I know 18/34 of the people in the class already! Which is more than half. Which is good, seeing how long I take to remember people's names and faces.

4 people take CLEP. -.- Out of 34. And one of them didn't even want it (as heard from gaoge XD).
21 take BSP. .____________________________.
Others are in their respective CCs... Which I'm too lazy to calculate...

Everyone in the class takes both Chemistry and Biology.
As for the 3rd subject, 9 people take Advanced Lit. (I'm too lazy to calculate the rest. So only calculating those relevant to me XDD)

10 take 3rd lang.

There are 5 art students with 3 that either has to drop 3rd lang or art.
3 AEPers.

Therefore as a conclusion, people are put into 310 because they take Chem and Bio. Period.
Don't ask me why 310 and not 312 or 313 though. I have no idea.
In fact I have no idea why did the school wonderfully decide to split 212 and 213 up this year.
WHY DO THE POLICY CHANGES ALWAYS HAPPEN. TO US. US. US.
-.- Is there something wrong with being born in 1995... -.- (Or happening to be a part of the unfortunate batch of 1995ers, like people like Xuedi Chunzi Zouyan Yixing etc.)

-.- -.- -.-
And apparently if I still want to appeal for HP I'll have to write a letter to the principal. Yay.
Oh wow.
But actually it's okay now, sort of, to me. :P
We'd most likely be combining with other classes for ALit, and I know of certain very pro people in 310 taking ALit too (ahem.) so it's good enough to me, actually. :D
Plus I can always work hard and apply for the HCJC Humans Programme. (Wait. You can still apply in Sec4 right. Right.)
:D

Oh yeah. And the 213 calculation.
6 people are going to 314, until Gaoge joins them there.
4 to 301, unless Gin wants to change options and give up SAP scholarship, in which case it would be 5.
6 to 308.
5 (6 for now...) to 310.
1 (jiayou Chunzi...) to 309.

And that's how our class has been split up wonderfully, by the wonderful school, who PROMISED, at the start of last year, that WE WOULD GET TO STAY AS A CLASS UNLESS YOU'RE GOING FOR TALENT PROGRAMMES.
-.-

This is why I shall never believe in things the school tells us anymore. -.-

I'm not happy with this entire system. -.-

Plus I get this feeling 310 would be full of class politics and cliques and we won't ever be as bonded as 213.
Okay at least I'm sure that at least 16 people (or so) in the class are nice. Which is half the class already. The rest... uh, some I don't exactly know well yet, some... I just... have... personal issues against. -.-

Yay.

I'm still not happy over the fact that I don't get to be a THIRTEENER forever (or at least for the entirety of my days in ny). -.-
Okay at least 310, when you reverse it, would be 013.
Then 410, when you reverse it, would be 014 (Suju + ELF ^^). :D
So yay anyway.

BUT 313 AND 413 STILL LOOK SO MUCH NICER. AND IS MUCH EASIER TO TYPE. AND AND UH, SOUNDS MUCH NICER! AND 13 IS SUCH A PRETTY NUMBER!
I PROTEST. PROTEST. PROTEST.

Ah well it's okay.
Even if it's not okay, I'll make it okay. Somehow.

Sorry I need some time to get used to this.
Get used to typing "10" instead of "13". ._.

GAH.
Notusedtoitnotusedtoitnotusedtoit.
._________.
Oh and for the record, I'm the only CCKPian in 310. -.- Nice.

MNET. DON'T DARE TO DIE ON ME. TYVM.
DON'T DARE TO DIE ON ELFs. TYVM. (Happy dieing on the TripleS-s though. 8D)
Yay.

-Oh Arron's semi-birthday dedi post coming up later. :D-

Rahrah.

xoxos.